Gone through hell, and now invincible

I realized something was wrong with me when I was 20 years old.

When I was in my early teens (13-14) I was a very social person, and well-liked by many. My penis was functioning normally, but I never had sex at that this age. I faced some difficulties when I was around 15 years old, and started isolating myself from others. I got heavily involved into gaming, and also in porn. I stopped caring about personal hygiene, and was a rather disgusting person not many people wanted to associate with for a while.
I started watching all type of digusting shit and got really desentized about sex. When I was around 17 years old I faced some of my challenges, and got back to normal again. I started hanging out with people again, and became my normal self again. I started caring about how I looked again. But with one major difference, I was really insecure about sex. I avoided sex with girls, even if I had the offers. Think some people was already questioning why I was avoiding having sex, because I was quite good looking.

Eventually I had the balls to go for it when I was around 19-20 years old, but it did not work. I could get hard, but it went limp again very quickly. I needed constant stimulation to be hard because of all the desentization. I figured out something was wrong with me. My first sexual experience was the worst day of my life, because I could not have intercouse, and I did not know why.
All type of theories was going thorugh my head. Was I asexual? Was there something physical wrong with me? Am I gay? I was rock bottom for a whole year, and I was even considering ending it all. I completely changed personality when I found out I was limp, I did not respect myself, and people stopped respecting me also. I was a walking zombie for a whole year.

After one year I found out about the effects of porn. I joined this website, and started rebooting. I finally had hope, a cure. I had life spirit again. I was so determined to cure myself that I went half a year without masturbating. But I did not had the balls to try having sex again, I was terrified that someone would find about my problem. I come from a small town, and people talk. In fact I did not try to have sex for over a year after I found out I had a porn addiction. Because my morning wood never came back, and I thought it might be something physical instead of something mentally. Anyway I never went back to porn.
I eventually moved out from my small town, and started studying in a bigger city. I was now 21 years old, and never had a successful intercourse in my life. I hated my life. I had stopped caring about this website, I thought it did not work, but I was still keeping away from porn. I was just masturbating by mental pictures in my head.

I bought some cialis online, and I eventually took a girl home with me. And it worked. I was rock hard for the whole night. I had sex for the first time in my life, and it worked. At the age of 21, but there was still one problem. I was relying on ED drugs at the age of 21 to have sex.
I was continuing having one night stand with cialis, sometimes it worked, and sometimes it did not. It really dependent on how much alcohol I was drinking that night. From 21 to 24 my sex life was relying on cialis and one night stands. I decided to quit with the ED drugs, because obviously mixing drugs and alcohol is not healthy. Another problem was that I could not ejeculate with the drugs, and my penis was not sensitive at all.
Eventually I found a girlfriend, and I felt safe with her. The problem was that I could not have sex without cialis, and especially not with condoms. She did not want to have sex without condom. I was rather insecure without the cialis. But she did not give up on me, and eventually I could even ejaculate with the condom on.


After 4-5 years in hell, I was finally free. I feel like nothing can stop me now. I've been rock bottom mentally, and I think after surviving this, It feels like I can overcome any obstacle in my life. I originally stopped posting here 5 years ago, but it felt like I needed to give something back to you guys, and show that this actually works. It can be a long and troublesome journey, but there's a big pay off at the end of the road.

 

How is your ed and morning wood now? As in are you taking ed drugs now?

 

6 years ago I could not even maintain an erection for more than 2-3 seconds without constant rubbing. I had a horrible case of PIED.

Now I don't have any signs of ED. I can stay hard for more than 30-60 seconds without even touching myself. I don't use any drugs anymore, stopped using them around 2 years ago. I usually
also use condoms while having sex, and I am able to ejaculate with condoms on. Never thought I would recover that well.

Usually have morning wood after a night of sex. Usually don't have morning wood if I did not have sex the night before. I'm not sure why that's a correlation, but atleast it is.

 

So good to hear. Thanks for sharing!

 

What is the ideal reference for having g a morning wood? Should it be there regularly?

 

No problem mate. I just felt like needed to share this story since I was cured. I have a suspicion a lot of people leave this site when they are cured, and never tell their success story. Think it was about time
I shared mine. I've been completely cured for 2 years now. Be free my friend.

 

There's not a definite answer for that. Some people have a normal sex life without morning wood at all. Before I started watching porn I had morning wood every morning, but this was when I was 13-14 years old with raging hormones.
When I was deep into porn, I never had morning wood. Now my morning wood come and go as I earlier stated. My morning wood definitely got better after I was cured. I've read stories here with people being cured without even having morning wood at all. I don't think you should be to focused on the morning wood itself.

Edit: Read that If you have the same sleep rhythm every night, it's a bigger possibility to wake up with morning wood. Some periods I wake up with morning wood everyday, some periods I wake up with morning 1-2 times a week. Like I said, there's not a definite answer.

 

Did you felt like you drained a lot of your energy by getting into this PMO. and regretting latter that you have wasted a lot of energy and lost vitality. I always feel that way.

 

How long does the intimacy lasts now?

 

Yes. PMO fucked up my sleep rhythm and my energy level. Anyway, my biggest regret is that I wasted so much of my youth not being sexual active. I believe sex is one of our fundamental needs, and I never felt fullfilled as a person without it.

 

It depends. On average 5-10 minutes.

 

Congratulations man.

 

Do you have it more than once a day?

And do you feel tired after it?

And what is your age now?

 

Well done!

We all love a success story.

We all also long for failure stories.

It reminds us we are human.

If you ever feel you fall off course again,

Dont beat yourself up,

Give yourself a smile and say, oh yes I can hear my destiny calling.

In Jesus name Amen

 

Sorry that I never answered you. Obviously I am not a lot on this site anymore since I am fully recovered. I am 27 years old, when I posted this I was 26. I have no problems having sex more than once per day.

 

Thanks, I am not a religious person, but I appreciate your words.

 

Do you still masturbate?

 

Well, you did recover. Congratulations. Enjoy lots of sex, treasure that shit

 

That’s an amazing story, congratulations. Really shows us that it can take a long time for some guys. Just to make sure I read correctly, did it take you 4-5 years to heal from PIED?

 

Maybe my favorite success story. Such powerful and inspiring words. Congratulations!