after 50 days of my 2nd reboot, i had a relapse. PMOed 6 times in a span of 24 hrs. bad one. met my counsellor y'day. feeling a lil better now. went thru all the emotions of despair, hopelesness etc. but i did experience some amazing times in these periods of reboot. i got a flavour of who i really am. i.e. how courageous, energetic, sharp, sensitive i can truly be. it was a great experience. have been reading the stickies in the forum on stop obsessing about counters & focus on life, there are more learnings from the previous reboot to be taken up further & some more new changes to be brought in the approach. i want to start back on the journey!.