General Jack D ripper journal

Discussion in 'Ages 25-29' started by General Jack D Ripper, Oct 8, 2012.

  1. breakingfree

    breakingfree Guest

    Hey general, try to take care of yourself, you're on high alert if you're having strong urges to relapse. I recommend eliminating all fantasizing, it gets better maybe it will take a few hours but you will be ok and you'll realize you didn't need it at all.

    How are you doing emotionally in life? Beyond porn?
     
  2. Ya thanks for stopping by and the comments

    well i dont really fantasize sexually much anymore only in my dreams really

    i do a good job at keeping that to an almost nonexistant status

    on the other hand i do get urges for porn and think i almost always will

    even after previous reboots i did

    as far as life outside of porn everything is fine

    i had a new girl every 2 months or so last year (this didnt help my porn problem)

    i have plenty of work at a pretty decent job and

    pretty much everything else is great TBH

    mood etc is usually pretty good

    i just gotta kick porn, its really never done anything positive for me and just made my life worse
     
  3. had a mild relapse

    fapped for lik 30-40 min to porn

    didnt search for all that much

    meh i could make a bunch of excuses for why i did it

    but mainly cause i was bored and i just choose to watch porn

    oh well back to reality
     
  4. CidGuerreiro

    CidGuerreiro Well-Known Member

    Did it happen at late night and/or a long procrastination session?

    Try to point out the patterns in your relapses if you haven't already. Mines are:

    1) Curiosity: I get extremely curious to see if I can find a very specific porn, then go on auto-pilot, bypass K9 and end up peeking a lot in my search for that specific porn. Most of the time I end up relapsing without even finding it, lol. Keeping the pendrive with K9's passoword at the top of my wardrobe helps me to avoid that one.

    and

    2) Late night: it's 3AM, I'm mindlessly browsing the internet and I can literally feel my brain running out of juice. What's the only thing that can give me a kick? PORN! Turning my computer off and keeping my phone away from bed are the only ways to save from that one.

    So try to point out the similarities among your relapses, it might help you to avoid them.
     

  5. Ive been pretty good at avoiding fantasizing and late night porn

    but boredom and curiousty are what get me at this point

    that and the fact that i say one time wont matter etc

    so peeking leads to all the problems

    i find that only when i eliminate all peeking am i able to really avoid porn for periods longer then a month\

    or 2

    thanks for stopping by and the comment
     
  6. This shit is so hard to quit. The big problem for me is that my impulsivity with porn and prostitute use is also present in many other situations, so I'm fucked on all areas of life.
    Ughhh. I can go from feeling like I can be free from all the bullshit in my life and things I don't need, like porn, to binging to porn, in just a matter of hours.
     
  7. LTB

    LTB Member

    Jack D- I see 46 days and counting...

    8) Nice!
     
  8. LTB

    LTB Member

    GENERAL WHERE THE FUCK U AT
     
  9. yup thats how it be

    REALLY DA PROBLEM BE DA PEEKING

    NO PEEKING = NO PRON

    PROSTITUTES WELL I CANT COMMENT ON DAT SINCE I NEVER TRIED IT ETC
     
  10. THANKS MOFO BUT I BE BACK ON DA WAK WAGON

    BUT I JUST QUIT AGAIN MIOST THIS YEAR WAS OK

    MEANNG NOT TOO MUCH PRON USE, NOT MANY BINGES BUT STILL PRON

    ONCE A WEEK/ONCE EVERY FEW WEEKS

    BUT I HAVENT BEEN ON SO ITS NOT ACCOUNTED FOR ON MY COUNTER

    NOW RECNTLY IN LAST 2 WEEKS I STARTED BINGING AGAIN

    SO DATS WHY I QUIT FOR REAL AND NO PEEKING OR NO NOTHING LAST WEEKEND

    N DATS WHY IM BACK AT DIS PLACE N AT MY JOURNAL (MY BULLSHIT JOURNAL TA BE EXACT)
     
  11. RIGHT FUKIN HERE MOTHERFUCKER!!! WHERE DA FUK U AT??

    HINT: IT BETTER NOT BE ON XHAMSTER
     
  12. WELL I WASNT SERIOUS AGAIN

    EVERY TIME I GET BORED ITS JUST I WATCH PORN

    WELL BACK ON DA HORSE

    MERRY FUCKING CHRISTMAS!!!!
     
  13. AND HAPPY FUCKING NEW YEARS MOTHERFUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!

    AKBASKFJKANGKTJAENKYTANKE4HY
     
  14. cNAT TAKE THIS SHIT ANYMORE

    1. Porn is not an option, its the only mindset that works for me, its really just not an option at this point in my life anymore, seriously not an option

    2. no more counting days, if i can go one day without porn i can go for a year etc, just focusing on getting through the day
     

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