Hey, I'm here. I kinda relapsed right after you did, made it to 10 days and on day 11 I MO'd like 3 times. Over the last few weeks I've been constantly doing sketchy google searches and google image searches…have managed to stay away from hardcore videos but I know…pixels are pixels. I was kinda in a funk, not feeling well, lazy and unmotivated. It's hard to pull yourself out of that state. I'm trying to stay motivated but it's SO hard to not MO. I might have to allow myself to MO once a week or something for now, before I can attempt to go for longer stretches. It looks like you've been going through a bit of a rough patch too? Have you started going to SLA meetings? Possible Trigger*? As far as the discussion on Porn and top/bottom roles, I agree with Zazaka that I don't think porn will make you a top or a bottom. But I think it could prevent you from exploring all sides of your sexuality - I'm usually bottom and used to watch porn with big masculine tops only, but then I met a small feminine guy and topped him several times over a few months and it was really enjoyable! Never thought I would've done that and it was never the kind of porn I was into. Just shows that fantasy does not equal reality, and can sometimes prevent you from trying things you might actually like.