I don't wanna dump too much info here; the whole anonymity thing and all. Day 0 The date is 9/15/2020. I keep telling myself "okay, this is the last time I'll do it. I got this." And the very next day I find myself in the bathroom telling myself that same hollow platitude again. I'd do the same song and dance in front of my close friend to make her think I'm doing better, when she and I both know I wasn't stopping any time soon. Today's gonna be different. Now, I'll stop. Why I Want To Quit I feel like shit everytime I PMO. It's not even for pleasure anymore, it's just something I do on the regular. It's a habit I really want to break, because eventually, it may be more than just a minor annoyance down the road. My Tendencies I don't usually troll Instagram for girls, most of the stuff I find is on some... non-family friendly sites Despite being a filthy fkn weeb, I can't get off to anime. At most, I'll see something that sets off a chain reaction in me to PMO to real women A few games I play feature predominantly female characters (mostly) clothed. Once again; can't get off to it. Possible Triggers Loneliness Anxiety from school Bored/nothing better to do Loneliness Being Single Loneliness Loneliness Loneliness I think I feel lonely sometimes Anything In My Ritual I'll Try To Change Most of the time, I get hit with the urge when I'm cooped up in my room and not doing anything productive with my time. This should be easy enough to change. Always attempt to stay in the presence of someone (whenever I have down-time) Given that most sport leagues are in play right now, I'll try my best to watch any games one, even if they aren't teams I root for (Go Bills!) I've been meaning to get into hockey, anyway. I've been trying to listen to a completely new album from a random musician every day. Maybe I'll post the albums I heard in my entries? I have some books sitting around. Don't I like to read? Try and initiate conversations with my friends My room is a dump; probably should get that cleaned up... I'll stay away from the Instagram Explore page and art-sharing platforms, at least in the short term. This plays into my second tendency. It's also to try and keep anime + manga as a hobby, not a catalyst of arousal Wait a few weeks and make the call on a few of the more "titillating" games I play are that much of a problem. I've never got any urge from those games, but with cutting porn out of my life, who's to say that will be the case a month or two down the road I'll try not to masturbate for, at the very least, a week. If I can get through that, I'll try for another This one's for you, (friend)!