I've been reading this forum for a while now and I decided to open a Journal. People say it helps to read my own journal when I'm having serious cravings, so I hope to help myself as well as others with this. For anyone who might read this, let me excuse my bad english, it's not my mother tonge.. I'm 25yo, started masturbating at 12 and have been very "passionate" about it since... I think I started watching porn at 14 or 15 and I haven't stopped. I started with regular XXX and then turned to more extreme stuff. I remember I noticed that regular porn wasn't doing it for me anymore when I was 18, suddenly I couldn't orgasm to pictures or regular M/F scenes anymore and needed sicker stuff to get off. Now I have delayed ejaculation, I can only come when I use my hand (death grip), and I never get a full erection having sex or getting oral. I also have performance anxiety: I can get a decent erection (like 80%) with my gf, but when I had tried with other women the boners are lower than 50%, sometimes I can't even penetrate. Last month, without knowing about this site or YBOP, I did 11 days without PMO, not because I was trying to reboot but because I was on a trip and I had to share room and absolutely ALL THE TIME with a friend, so there wasn't time to masturbate... The first 5 days I didn't even noticed that I wasn't masturbating, but when it hit me I got really bad cravings... I didn't had my computer around so I couldn't checkout porn... Finally I checked softcore porn from my phone and by the last 2 days I was desperate to get home. I remember the flight to my country, a 16h flight, I was having erections to this girl that was sitting next to me but all the things I could think of were porn fantasies where she was the co-star haha.. When I finally got home I was really tired, almost 24h without sleeping, and I couldn't get to sleep, I turned my computer on and masturbated to porn twice! then I slept a little bit and when I woke up with a boner, I kept with the masturbation! I was going off like crazy! that day I think I wanked off like 6 times... the exact same way another addiction's binge would be.. Well, I'm now in the 8th day of my reboot... 8 days ago I found YBOP and it described so closely my situation I got really scared and decided to put an end to this! On day 2 I deleted all my porn stash from my computer and by now I am not having huge cravings, just minor ones but I'm a little bit scared that the withdrawal syndrome will hit hard soon.. Either way, I'm convinced I can do this! no more PMO for me!