Day 1: My name is Washingtonian, and I am 27 years old. I do live in Washington, one of Washington State or Washington DC, but that's not important. What is important is this: I am addicted to porn. I have erectile dysfunction. Not all the time, but regularly. I look (or looked?) at a lot of porn of all different stripes on almost a daily basis since I was 16, at least once every 2-3 days since I was 13, with a few exceptions. I have been diagnosed with mild but chronic depression plus some social anxiety and I'm currently on bupropion, which is a dopamine uptake inhibitor, for the past 2 and a half months. It's supposed to make you more horny, which it has, and able to perform, which it hasn't. It makes me feel only marginally better, but the social anxiety, which it is also supposed to help, is still there. Sometimes, I wonder if I stop taking it, if there would be much of a difference. Also, I have been taking more and more of it: I started out with 100 mg, went up to 200 mg, now 300 mg, which is the recommended dosage. Yesterday, after I couldn't get it up for my friend, I rubbed it out more times than I care to remember over the course of 10 hours to among other things, a threesome on a beach, an orgy in Russia, and two impossibly blonde women with impossibly big breasts and impossibly small waists getting each other off on the heel of a spike heeled shoe they passed between themselves. I should have been doing my last papers before I graduate my master's program, but I put that off for Angel and Brooke and their spike heels. It wasn't all that satisfying on any level anyways. I have a one bedroom apartment to myself, and (unlike most in my program) I have a job after graduation by some miracle. As I alluded to before, I recently found myself in this friends with benefits relationship, and I've been able to get it up sometimes (I'd say 50%). When I do, the erection is never really satisfying and it takes me for-fucking-EVER to get off. It has been this way for years, since at least senior year of college. The Internet puts everything at your fingertips, why make some effort when you can expend none? I do tend to cut myself from people. The FWB is leaving for the summer on the 27th until late August. Who knows what happens after that. I'm going to try the no porn and masturbation for as long as I can, but when it comes to orgasm, if there's a real live woman in front of me and I can do it, then I will. Otherwise, under any other circumstance, I won't.