Fresh Start: Just taking it day by day.

Discussion in 'Ages 25-29' started by Seeker21, Dec 24, 2018.

  1. Seeker21

    Seeker21 Trying to Get Out of My Own Way.

    Well....

    I haven't been on here for a while. I actually gave up for a while, tried to accept my role as an addict and just have fun with it. But, i couldn't. Not that it was a good thing to try anyway, but it just couldn't work. My Mind, Body and Spirit (W/the help of God) wouldn't allow it to happen.

    I'd go through periods of time thinking all is well and i'm going to work things out by reshaping the way i thought of my situation, because sometimes that is the key, but Nope.... the cracks would eventually show, my high would come down, i'd realize just how much it was affecting me and dump all of my porn and try again.

    So now....I'm here. Again.

    This is where i need to be. I've been needing to make this work for the longest, but something kept making me want to find a way to make it work, but it was bound to fail. No way around it. I just knew better and i couldn't escape that.

    New Goal:

    I am going to log on this site every 1 to 2 days, how things are going. Focus on over powering and/or avoiding triggers, overcoming urges and just gaining the discipline to turn myself down when i want to go back because it's "easier". It's really not easier tbh. Everything requires sacrifice of some sort and the loss of progress toward goals is much worse than dealing with the loss of porn or having to cope with some urges.

    Anyway... If anyone has any tips for me that worked for them, lemme know. I need all the tips that i can get.
     
  2. Seeker21

    Seeker21 Trying to Get Out of My Own Way.

    Day 2: 5:49am

    habit kicked in and i started fapping and watching porn. Didn't fight. Just gave in because i wanted to feel good. But then i had a sense that i was giving off negative energy and stopped.

    Now....i'm sitting here thinking. What to do now? IDK.

    I guess i'll listen to music and focus on other things.

    Back to 0
     
  3. Seeker21

    Seeker21 Trying to Get Out of My Own Way.

    Another day....Another 0.

    Starting fresh again. Simply gave into the urges to PMO. It wasn't fun, it was draining and disappointing as always.

    Taking it 1 day at a time.

    Just need to be able to make it past one day.

    I'm taking this serious starting now.
     

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