Fresh start again ...

Discussion in 'Ages 40+' started by positivef, Jul 11, 2020.

  1. UK Don

    UK Don Active Member

    Keep it up mate! We're both on 6 weeks no PMO today
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  2. Clovis6

    Clovis6 Well-Known Member

    [QUOTE="positivef, post: 711192, member: 25443" either way I'm not going back.[/QUOTE]

    That’s the spirit!
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  3. positivef

    positivef Active Member

    Thanks, UK Don and Clovis6. The encouragement helps : -)
  4. forlorn

    forlorn Well-Known Member

    Yep. Build it into your lifestyle. Once you've started to do it consistently and it becomes part of your routine, you'll start to look forward to it and miss it on days when you don't exercise.

    Do you jog outdoors or on a treadmill?
  5. positivef

    positivef Active Member

    I trying to but I don't have any good routine yet to build it into. I jog outside; either around the streets near to where I live, or I go to park.
  6. catchingup

    catchingup Active Member

    @positivef Hope you are doing well my friend, the bad days will pass and good days will come! Only one way to find out!! Wishing you well!!
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  7. Kenny75

    Kenny75 New Member

    @positivef Hope you are doing well and pushing ahead. The best days are yet to be.
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  8. positivef

    positivef Active Member

    Thanks for all the support. Really struggling today with depression and my brain trying to link relief to masturbating. Oh well, less than an hour I will be on the way to work and out of temptations way.

    It doesn't really matter if the best/good days are ahead or not, cause I'm not going back to porn. I do appreciate your kind words though.
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  9. Kenny75

    Kenny75 New Member

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    wareagle Member

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  11. Vanoli16

    Vanoli16 Member

    Keeping you in my thoughts right now.
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  12. positivef

    positivef Active Member

    thanks for all the support it's helping me push through. I'm at the stage were I'm managed a few weeks abstinence and my brain is saying 'so what', 'why bother?'.
    I don't look forward to going to sleep (bad dreams) and I don't look forward to waking up (depression). Still going though, sometimes it's okay.
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  13. Kenny75

    Kenny75 New Member

    I'm very sorry to hear that. Not easy for you. Hang in there, the best is yet to be.
  14. Clovis6

    Clovis6 Well-Known Member

    Hang in there! The brain will tell you all kinds of things to try and get you to act out. I don’t know how much the depression is due to the effects of rebooting or other factors. However, anything you can do that might help this, e.g. exercise, better diet, etc are worth looking into.
  15. Vanoli16

    Vanoli16 Member

    Keep moving forward. You are inspiring me with all that you are dealing with, and still staying PMO free. Thanks for continuing to show up.
  16. positivef

    positivef Active Member

    I felt very tempted to masturbate at one point. Feeling frustrated at my living situation, lack of productively and lack of planning this week. I need to need focus and action more. Thanks for all your support.
  17. Clovis6

    Clovis6 Well-Known Member

    You are welcome.

    Sounds like a good time to step up the planning.

    Keep going!
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  18. positivef

    positivef Active Member

    Well I failed at the planning. It seems like whenever I have time to plan I waste it being distracted. I another week gone and I'm as disorganised and as far away from achieving my plans as ever. I would say I have crushing depression but it is probably just self pity.

    One thing is that I've managed to keep up with the jogging this week. I've also being trying to learn to touch type, but I'm not sure if this is just another addiction/distraction or not.
  19. Apeman

    Apeman It means you're a baboon... And I'm not

    Another thing is that you're 2 months clean. That's a big deal. From where I'm standing, it looks like you have more successes than failures. I totally get the impulse to beat yourself up--it's pretty much all I do--but I don't want your successes to go unnoticed.

    Keep up the good work. Just be better than yesterday, or forgive yourself and try again.

    On and up, brother.
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  20. positivef

    positivef Active Member

    Thanks, you are right I have made progress in being clean. It's a funny thing addiction, it's hard to give credit for not doing something which you should not be doing away. Having gone down this path it's a hard to get back. Having a clearer mind makes seeing the road taken all the more painful.
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