Day 42 Hi Forlon, Thanks for stopping by. I have been gradually getting back into running. Also cutting back on my sugar intake. The reason I’m not full steam ahead is that it’s the Christmas season so it’s a little hard to get a new routine started. Thank you for the encouragement. I am struggling a bit today. Last night and this morning I felt totally depressed. Was very slow and gluggy. I did some meditation and that really helped lift my spirits, but I can feel my restless mind pushing me towards temptation. It’s doing a good job of downplaying it too. I need to be more vigilant. Can I really be trusted when I am by myself? I really want to believe that I can. But I think if my mood is not stable then I may not have the will power to stay clean. I have written posts like this shortly before a relapse. Alarm bells should be ringing all over the show. I am feeling very tired, I know I will feel worse if I relapse. The first casualty is always sleep. I need to give this some thought. Will update again later today. Important to check in with my blog. Peace out. PC.