Hi there Thought i would get on the journal band wagon to, im not going to be on here all the time anymore as its turning into an addiction all of its own, will make my visits and journal entries once weekly. I became a heavy porn user at the age of 24 after a breakup with my girlfriend of 3 years, im 29 and a half now, not only was i into porn videos, but cam sites, chat rooms, escort and dating sites, ive spent hours and hours horny as hell. Ive watched all the porn genres on every damn tube on the internet and become desensitized as a mutharfu**er, ive got quite severe ed problems and i don't get turned on by normal sexual cues. The first time i realised i had ed was in a rather strange way, i met a girl on the net in September last year, she asked me to send a picture on my tackle and i could not get an erection for the picture, i actually put it down to the fact i had a nervous breakdown a couple of months before and had upped my dose of anti depressants I then had sex with the girl the day after and suffered a bout of PE but got an erection fine, id not taken my tablets that day. Anyway i carried on with the porn and the rest of it, totally blind to the cause of the problem and got another girl off the dating site, same story but couldn't get an erection with out manual stimulation on the 3 occasions we had sex, i also only could only could get a 90% erection and suffered PE on all occasions. So at this time it was early October and i had to strip my room as it was getting re decorated etc at which point i had to be without my computer for around 3 weeks, no porn, which didn't bother me but my penis started to shrink and go numb, cold, i honestly could not feel it at all. I was really scared so booked in the hospital, i saw a doctor and told him that id had a nervous breakdown in the summer, he said that the symptoms i was showing were because of the breakdown and that it could take one to two years to get back on track..............Yeah right!! This wasnt good, so i went to the doctors a few days later, he gave me a viagra prescription and booked me in with a specialist. At this point i was chatting to another girl and got with her, came to having sex after a night out, no erection, nothing, dead, no libido no urge, it might as well of been a sack of potatoes next to me, omg i was devastated but then i remembered i had my viagra stash, got one of those down the neck, waited 30 mins and bingo, had sex all night but holy delayed ejaculation batman, i could not ejaculate no matter what, day after......same, day after that.........same. Early november, the girl who i had to use viagra with was my gf at this point, she was understanding of my situation as she thought that it was because of the breakdown, we had had sex loads of times, didnt enjoy it once and could only get a 90% erection on a good day, started to loose erections mid sex etc etc. Off to see specialist i go, told him the story and he booked me in for loads of tests and booked me in for a fortnightly sex therapist lolol, i actually told him i had watched loads of porn for years, to which he replied that i may be a little desensatised but not enough to effect me in this way?????? anyway me another prescription of viagra and sent me on my merry way. Sooo that is when i started searching the internet found YBOP and everything started to fit into place, i knew there and then what had caused this and stopped watching porn on the spot, that was 93 days ago. Started trying to abstain with the girl, would go a week, then 10 days, then 5 days then two weeks etc, PE every time. couldnt do it with a partner, to much pressure from her, when she got horny i would feel guilty, first sign of getting an erection i was just as bad so not all her fault. Was abstaining from the 4th, but fast forward to the 7th I went to see a private specialist, one of the most respected in the world, told him the full story, he knew all about YBOP and all the details on what has happened to us guys, he advocated that a long period of abstainance was the only way forward for us. One thing he did mention that didnt match with the YBOP (the only thing that didnt match) is that spontanious erections must return for the reboot to be complete, he said that morning erections should be 100% or your not recovered, especially if your under 40. This is when i got my act together and decided to do this reboot good and proper. DAY 23: Today i nearly messed up, i stupidly tried to test if i could get an erection and felt like i was going to ejaculate just trying to get one, i was so sensative, if id of carried on for another 10 seconds id of ejaculated with a 50% hard on, I was only shaking, wiggling, not masturbating, phew nearly.