day 4. Ive been feeling so great the last few days. I have to say thanks to @Johhny Bravo and @Fry2 for mentioning the hypnotherapy and also the book " Feeling good" So far, the last few days i have realised how negative, damaging, and plain false my self talk usually is, and ive had almost complete control of it. Ive been feeling great. My only fear is that what ive been experiencing is some kind of manic episode. Time will tell ey! I'd recommend both to anyone who struggles with low mood and depression Ive been getting up earlier and productivity is improved - but there is still room for improvment. Been feeling like its possible to reach my goals with music, with time and hard work. Went out solo to see this singer last night, perfect opportunity to start feeling lonely and down but i persevered, had a nice chat with her after. She was great!!! I really hope we can get her on our next track, she said she is up for it!!! Fun night hosting tonight, had a great chat with a girl, shes an artist. Lovely girl, got her no. and a kiss on the cheek as she left. There was a girl with massive tits who got me a drink, the kind of girl that had loads of "stragglers" around her afterwards. Usually i would have gone out with them, got drunk, chased her - even though I have work tomorrow morning in a job where i should be being responsible, but this time I walked away. Also i text the girl from last night, she replied but i found myself feeling quite relaxed about the whole deal - without my usual stress. TRP is great, but its not the ultimate answer for me, so ill keep searching. Maybe i found it now. time will tell. The ultimate game is just feeling happy, complete and motivated without a woman in my life, without webcams - then maybe, just maybe mind you, the next one(or ones) who comes into it are going to be right. work tomorrow morning!!