Finally realized...

Discussion in 'Ages 40+' started by Wild Bill, Feb 6, 2019.

  1. Wild Bill

    Wild Bill Member

    I appreciate everyone's input. I've never gone through this and it's confusing whether what I'm experiencing is age related or brain rebooting. There's no info on any of this stuff on psych/med sites. The porn industry has the medical/political industrial complex under tight control it seems.
     
  2. Saville

    Saville Well-Known Member

    None of us has gone through this. It's why this community is so valuable. :)

    The medical machine is at its best in an emergency. If you have arthritis: take a drug. If you feel down: take a drug. If you can't get a boner: take a drug. If drugs don't work then they offer surgery. Those are the options. The model of our brain as neuroplastic is the best one, imo. It's one we've intuitively known for millenia and now it can actually be scientifically measured. But, the status-quo dies hard, and all those bozos, er, doctors, won't accept anything outside their learning, because that would mean their learning was all a pack of lies...which, in many cases, it is.

    P addicts need to learn to "feel" again. Role playing, fantasy, PMO, is all part and parcel of the addiction. I would urge you, if you haven't already done so, to read the many fine journals on here. There are guys who are long gone who have set down amazing wisdom. I often read the archived stuff as I find it inspiring.

    Keep on truckin', bro'!
     
  3. Wild Bill

    Wild Bill Member

    Thanks Saville!

    Ex GF came over and we had a scorching hot session x 2! Not bad for 58! I'm fighting the fucking chaser now. When does that go away? I don' remember chasers 5 plus years ago.
     
  4. GreyHeron

    GreyHeron Active Member

    Hi WB,
    It is so great that you are keeping away from the P. for so long. I speak as someone who cannot comment on part of your story.
    When I read the above I thought careful there my friend. I compare what you have written with my experience. Many times I can walk down the street oblivious to the media around me. Still the fantasy can come on me at other times. Similarly when I have relapsed and looked at P. it has not worked, I have walked away wishing that I had other means of getting what I want. Only for me to make another effort thinking 'it is OK I survived the last time' to be sucked in deeply. I say this to emphasise that the journey we are on is not a linear one and some days will smash you really hard.

    Soar Well

    Grey Heron
     
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  5. Wild Bill

    Wild Bill Member

    90 fucking days and no PMO! That's a first
     
  6. Wild Bill

    Wild Bill Member

    On a positive note, my first bondage session with my 28 y/o sub went swimmingly! She's one of the best cocksuckers I've ever had!
     
  7. Wild Bill

    Wild Bill Member

    100 days well motherfucker that's a first!
     
  8. Wild Bill

    Wild Bill Member

    Motherfucker I relapsed last night! I had a hot session with my nurse and succumbed to the chaser. I've been sliding this way for awhile with peeks at porn but no PMO, another girlfriend sending me her X rated photo shoot etc. I'm sure the hardened vets saw this coming. I need to stay positive and realized I went 4 months w/o PMO. I'm open to guidance on proceeding back on the right path.
     
  9. Wild Bill

    Wild Bill Member

    How do I reset the PMO tracker?
     
  10. Wild Bill

    Wild Bill Member

    Back in the saddle again. Was with a woman 2 days ago and the chaser was minimal. The chaser is my downfall and I'm not looking or glancing at porn. Definitely harder than I thought in our porn drenched society
     
  11. Wild Bill

    Wild Bill Member

    My dick was basically broken when I came here. I'm now 60 and have no problem sustaining a boner for sex with my wife. I've been clean for over 2 years now. It takes time, but if you follow and believe in the process it will work. - Saville

    My dick is broken without viagra. I've become psychologically dependent on it. My on/off again nurse GF came over and I had sex with her. I did oral on her and she did a HJ on me and I came without ever getting hard. That's never happened and I think I'd better start taking this seriously if I ever want to get better. I wake up with morning wood 2-3 times a week so I know there's nothing wrong physically. It's my fucking brain!

    Saville may be right that all the kinky sex and multiple partners and PMO it's all tied together. I'm getting tired of the Vagina-go-round anyway. I'm open to comments and critiques.

    Thanks guys for being here in a complete void of information of this subject.
     
  12. Bobo

    Bobo Well-Known Member

    Viagra and the such have one real problem or should I say you have the problem. If you use them you become dependent on them. The prescription companies will not tell you this. Once they become a habit you're fucked! You know this so what do you do ?4

    Like Saville I am 59 years old and the woman I see is now 33. I fuck her silly and fill her with splooge. I am nothing special just a regular guy. I use no aids. The pecker works. As Saville once said " neurons that wire together fire together" When you give up pmo you don't need viagra etc, it takes some time but it will be fine you will have no problem screwing. Pmo is really insidious it makes you believe you need a sex aid. You don't you just need to believe and perservere. That's what you do ! Rock on bro-- you can do it !
     
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  13. Wild Bill

    Wild Bill Member

    Bobo I read your story and would like to know how long it took you to rewire your brain so that things work naturally. I'm extremely fit for my age or any age so I know it's not physical.
    BTW I was a grunt (Infantry) in the Army. I think you were USMC?
     
  14. Wild Bill

    Wild Bill Member

    Saville what did you mean exactly by this statement? "My dick was basically broken when I came here"
     
  15. Bobo

    Bobo Well-Known Member

    Being a grunt in the Army or USMC is old time isn't it? Look at you these days like you are retarded or don't have any other option in life. Patriotism is definitely not in fashion.

    I would say it took about 6 mos that I had to gauge my libido. Often times it would just be when my libido and dick wanted to work. I still have moments that I have to gauge. Though it was and still is rough I can see the definite improvement. I at least have to be real careful of fantasy during sex and stay in the moment. The wonderful about giving up pmo really giving it up is the dick remains hard.
     
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  16. Wild Bill

    Wild Bill Member

    This episode today really rattled me
     
  17. Wild Bill

    Wild Bill Member

    I agree with you on the old school patriotism! I was lucky enough to have served under the enlightened reign of Ronaldus Maximus!
     
  18. Bobo

    Bobo Well-Known Member

    I was in Iraq during Desert Storm. Now that would wake a lot of these people up" but but I didnt sign up they just sent me here -this is not fair--- ! " fair ? they dont care son about fair or your politics your American they just want to kill you !Ronaldus Maximus a truly enlightened man as you say as was General Swartskof--- RIP both good men !
     
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  19. Saville

    Saville Well-Known Member

    I couldn't cum with a woman. I couldn't get hard and stay hard with a woman. I could barely get a boner while watching P. It would take me an hour or two to cum with P and often my dick would be softish. My O's were terrible, about 70% of the time I didn't feel anything. The sperm would trickle out and I would get almost no pleasurable sensation. Because regular P did nothing for me I veered into other areas, hoping I would get a charge from something new. I looked at Tranny P, gay P, fatties, grannies, and anime. It's hard to imagine now because I wouldn't look at P now if you paid me.

    Yes, it's all PMO.

    Neurons that fire together, wire together. I now only find looking at a real woman exciting. My boners are back and I have no trouble cumming with the wife and I don't need viagra. My relationship with my wife is also restored. Basically, giving up PMO has been a miracle.
     
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  20. Bobo

    Bobo Well-Known Member

    I never thought if it this way. But, it's a great way to think of it cause it's TRUE. If only you could inject this in every pmo arm it would reduce and take away so much pain and distress.
     

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