Finally realized...

Discussion in 'Ages 40+' started by Wild Bill, Feb 6, 2019.

  1. Wild Bill

    Wild Bill Active Member

    Amen Bobo!
     
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  2. Bobo

    Bobo Well-Known Member

    Interesting! My interest is about realizing my own power certainly not a judgement of your take on it. This is a continuing effort that gets better all the time since I was raised by and though a male " hatred" soceity. Not that it is invasive by definition, it simply let's me be me and not necessarily at someone's else's definition. I dont think personal definitive power has to be at another's expense.
     
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  3. Wild Bill

    Wild Bill Active Member

    Pleasure and gratification is a give and take process. On another note, I've only had 2 MW's this week. Must be a part of the rollercoaster.
     
  4. Bobo

    Bobo Well-Known Member

    Stay with it WB. You are one of the most determined I see here. Just saying -----
     
  5. Wild Bill

    Wild Bill Active Member

    Thanks for the encouragement bobo
     
  6. Wild Bill

    Wild Bill Active Member

    I've started meditating tonight, it definitely calms the anxiety. Right in the middle I started having porn thoughts maybe it's dredging up toxic energy i.e. porn compulsions? When I began I experienced a sort of psychic discomfort as if I was reprogramming my brain and there was resistance. Interesting and positive experience. My experience with meditation in the past was through traditional martial arts and that was very intense and different as I was laser focused and only saw through my target. This was calming and affirming. I intend to make this a daily ritual.
     
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  7. Wild Bill

    Wild Bill Active Member

    PC came over today and we had a nice session. Repetition, Repetition, Repetition!
     
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  8. Wild Bill

    Wild Bill Active Member

    Did meditation tonight and porn thoughts intruded briefly. Haven't had that since I started 6 days ago
     
  9. chopper

    chopper IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING!!

    Lot's of triggers there for the other members of this forum. Well done to you for your progress but just remember there are people here fighting hard to get past a few days .
     
  10. Wild Bill

    Wild Bill Active Member

    Thanks mom. BTW, you joined in 2013 and you've got 11 days no PMO? I don't plan on being on here for years and constantly relapsing. I use this site to basically journal and get advice. I have my own style of expressing myself. Don't like it? Stay off my thread
     
  11. chopper

    chopper IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING!!

    No problem Wildbill aka my little son (you called me mom) I reported your posts because of your selfish attitude towards other members. Nobody knows a trigger is coming unless you highlight a trigger warning so t you are selfishly triggering someone on here without caring. The forum is not the wildbill forum. There are rules. You seem to be living in a bit of a fantasy world. Your tales of your conquests are silly and immature and maybe you are trying to compensate for something. You seem to think you have rebooted but in fact your mindset towards women and relationships is still very pornlike and immature. It is like a reading a teenagers diary. As for me yes i originally signed up back in 2013 when i noticed issues and i have relapsed now with bad habits after many years. So sue me!!! Does that somehow make me less than you?? Why are you even posting on the forum ?? You don't seem to really care about the other rebooters. That is clear by your last post. Stay off the forum if you can't follow the rules!!! Your thread is part of the forum.
     
  12. NCBob

    NCBob The 11th commandment: Thou shalt not peek:-)

    Just chiming in with my 2 cents. Every now and again I've read through Wild Bill's posts, and felt uncomfortable with some of the things he's posted. I've recognized it as my feelings of discomfort being triggered, and left it at that. Feedback is important in our recovery process, so consider this mine:)
     
  13. Wild Bill

    Wild Bill Active Member

    Constructive criticism I'll take. Thanks Bob
     
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  14. NCBob

    NCBob The 11th commandment: Thou shalt not peek:-)

    My pleasure, Wild Bill:) With feedback, there can be a fine line between saying too little and saying too much. Always a work in progress:D
     
  15. Wild Bill

    Wild Bill Active Member

    Damn this is the last place I thought I'd have to worry about nosy, pissy social justice warriors and their safe spaces.

    Believe it or not my concubines are understanding and helping me through my problem. I'm a single man and have multiple girlfriends or concubines as I like to put it, because I lived many years in Asia and I'm dominant I prefer that term.

    Shifting gears, my meditation is doing well. It's definitely calming and giving me a more pleasant attitude and friendly demeanor.

    21 days to break a bad habit and 28 days to create good habits.
     
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  16. Bobo

    Bobo Well-Known Member

    Ok! If you dont like a post or what it says DONT READ IT ANYMORE.WE ARE ALL HERE TO GET BETTER. We may not and usually dont agree with each other but remember "WE ARE ALL BROTHERS IN ARMS !" YOU DONT INFlICT YOUR POINT OF VIEW ON YOUR BROTHERS! Its YOUR point of view!
     
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  17. chopper

    chopper IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING!!

    Nope not how it works. There are rules on the forum and nobody here is an sjw. Wildbill is selfish and is now trying his best to turn it on me. Don't worry wildbill you can be a keyboard tough guy . I can't square up to you here. I'm going to call bs on your posts though. You are living in a fantasy world and you haven't recovered. I would have said this in a much nicer way but your hissy fit after my original post showed me exactly how you are. "Concubines" get real man.
     
  18. chopper

    chopper IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING!!

    It's not a point of view. Reading it once is enough to trigger some people. All he has to do is right a headline "TRIGGER WARNING". That was what i was saying but he turned it into some war against his rights or bs. If someone reads it and gets triggered to pmo then that's a real shame. And btw i wasn't triggered at all but there are people that are really struggling and I've read their journals. It's possible he has triggered some of "our brothers in arms" into relapses but he says he doesn't care. So whatever fellas! Turn this into another argument if you wish .
     
  19. NCBob

    NCBob The 11th commandment: Thou shalt not peek:-)

    There's a zillion and one ways to interpret what's being said here, chopper, and I appreciate you advocating for others on the board.

    For myself, if I'm triggered by something I've read here or seen elsewhere, it's ultimately my responsibility to manage my recovery in such a way that I don't act out when I'm triggered. Otherwise, I'm relegating myself to 'walking on eggshells' recovery, and putting my well-being at the mercy of what others do and don't do here or elsewhere. From my experience, every trigger is an opportunity to put my recovery tools to work. Without triggers, I'll never grow stronger.
     
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  20. Wild Bill

    Wild Bill Active Member

    Hey brothers are there moderators on this board? This guy needs to get kicked off this board too
     

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