Finally doing this.

Discussion in 'Ages 25-29' started by lucasarino, Feb 22, 2021.

  1. lucasarino

    lucasarino New Member

    Hey everyone, decided i'll post my journal here rather than on a wordpad doc.

    Some background info: So I'm 28 years old with PIED. Been on the wagon for like 4 years or so giving one half ass attempt after another going PMO free for 3 months. Think the longest I've gotten is like ~40 days or so in which case I relapsed back to my old habits.

    So I said enough is enough and decided that I'm going to do it for sure this time. Since I know a mere 3 months is not enough to undue the symptoms from a decade long habit, I am hoping that it alleviates my symptoms to motivate me for further progress. Also I just want to prove to myself that I CAN and WILL do this successfully.

    As for my PIED symptoms for those of you that are curious. if I have sex within like >4 days of masturbating then I can get an erection but I have trouble maintaining it for more than like 5 mins. However if I did not masturbate for over a week than I have no trouble maintaining an erection, I just can never finish.

    Well here goes nothing

    Day 1-22: It went relatively smoothly, had a slip up like 1 week in where I voluntarily opened a video, but I did not M or O to it so I did not feel the need to count it, just learn and move on. Other than that I've been doing a good job of avoiding porn and inadvertantly running into sexual material. I'm not however doing a good job of keeping naughty thoughts out of my head since I was horny pretty much every morning since I started. I flatlined for about 2 days like 2 weeks in where I was wallowing in self pity. Planning on rewarding myself with a nice drink every month I survive so to speak so I've that to look forward to.
     
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  2. Bilbo Baggins

    Bilbo Baggins Well-Known Member

    Welcome on the forum, and good luck. You’re off to a great start, keep it up.
     
  3. lucasarino

    lucasarino New Member

    Hey thanks for the warm welcome.

    Day 23: Pretty good day, decent mood and decent labido which proved troublesome but just taking this day by day. Have a scotch to look forward to next week so I'm excited about that.
     
    Last edited: Feb 23, 2021
  4. lucasarino

    lucasarino New Member

    Day 24: Good mood, though not the most productive day. Labido is still there but substantially less than usual. Had almost no desire to view pornography these past couple weeks, still the tension is definitely there and have to take care. Had my usual morning dirty thoughts, I can disperse them but not sure how I can keep them out all together. Started playing through a beloved game trilogy so i'll have that to keep me occupied for a good bit. STALKER for those of you that are curious. Can't wait for this weekend to come!
    Perhaps I will read every morning to solve my aforementioned problem.
     
    Last edited: Feb 23, 2021
  5. lucasarino

    lucasarino New Member

    Day 25: Both low energy and lots of tension today. Inadvertently glanced at a youtube thumbnail that was pretty close to porn which I immediately turned away from, so I'm bummed out about that, was not my fault but I should be more careful when I'm browsing. Mood is fine, like 5/10. Need to get some more hobbies or useful pursuits to keep my mind off it.
     
    Last edited: Feb 24, 2021
  6. lucasarino

    lucasarino New Member

    Day 26: Was pretty down on myself last night, better now thankfully as I knew those feelings are generally fleeting. Kind of low energy all of today but I'm going to go to the gym so we'll see how that goes. Labido normal-ish, had the usual morning wood which is good I suppose. Almost at my first major milestone so I'm pscyched about that. After that it'll just be a mere 2 months left and it's getting easier the more time goes by.
     
  7. lucasarino

    lucasarino New Member

    Day 27: Very good mood, had a rather productive day, by my standards atleast so I'm doing alright.
     
  8. lucasarino

    lucasarino New Member

    Day 28: Not much to say, good mood, no urges or anything.
     
  9. lucasarino

    lucasarino New Member

    Day 29: Feel alright, much like the day before. Excited to reach my first real milestone, calls for a drink.
     
  10. lucasarino

    lucasarino New Member

    Day 30: Ayy made it, only 2 more months to go. Feeling good and accomplished, went for a prolonged jog which felt good. Felt a bit ill after, perhaps I over did it but today is definitely a net positive.
     
  11. Universal

    Universal New Member

    Hey man, great work so far. I have a semi similar story. Been around the forum for a very long time.

    You're current goal is obviously 90 days.. are you aiming hardmode or no P?
     
  12. lucasarino

    lucasarino New Member

    Hey thanks man, new to the forum but was privy to the movement for a long time.

    Correct. 90 day hardmode.
     
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  13. lucasarino

    lucasarino New Member

    Day 31: Felt much better than the later part of last night when I had a minor headache. Morning wood in the morning as usual, not worth reporting since I get them every morning almost, should just report when I DONT so i'll do that. Feel accomplished today, pleasantly surprised that my intermittent fasting is working.. least I think so, could be just water weight but I'm optimistic. I have pretty good control over porn and masturbation though even when I'm exceedingly tired or had a few drinks, I really don't think i'll be overwhelmed by it anymore on this journey or ever.
     
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  14. JohannesParvus

    JohannesParvus New Member

    Well done, all the best.
     
  15. lucasarino

    lucasarino New Member

    Thanks buddy! all the best to you too
     
  16. lucasarino

    lucasarino New Member

    Day 32: Have a bit of a headache, pretty neutral and unremarkable day otherwise, nothing of note to write about really
     
  17. lucasarino

    lucasarino New Member

    Day 33: No cravings or anything, went to the gym, had a poor workout, no energy but mood is stable. that's all.
     

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