Fall Seven Times. Stand up Eight

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by J.P., Oct 26, 2012.

  1. Barneybarn

    Barneybarn Reboot and rewire!

    Hey JP,
    congrats on the 50 and the 100!
    Great going!
    Reboot and rewire,
  2. CleanHands

    CleanHands Guest

    Yeah, congrats man! How do you feel?
  3. Chammorrow

    Chammorrow Member

    wow man 100 days..that's amazing. I keep being surprised by how smooth and swift this has been for you. Other rebooters have a pretty rough road to a 100, and usually you know when they get there. But you've had such a buttery road that I didn't even realize when you made to 50 and even less now that you've made it to 100.

    Great job, you're halfway to 200 bud.
  4. Congrats on the 100 days man! You really make it as if it was an easy thing. When are you seeing Emily again?
  5. Apeman

    Apeman It means you're a baboon... And I'm not

    You've got a big milestone coming up, Jp. Congrats are in order.

    Furthermore, I want to thank you for the support you've given me on my reboot. Your perspective has been invaluable.

    Onward, to 200 and beyond!
  6. J.P.

    J.P. Active Member

    Thanks everyone for the congrats on my 100 days, but I am not nearly done. This day streak should go on for as long as I live, and I certainly promise to try.

    Halfway to 200!

    Always man, if ever I feel I can contribute some good questions that'll give food for thought and help guide you, I will pose them.

    Idk, and honestly I am doing my own thing and looking for a real girlfriend right now, should the rewiring opportunity present itself, I will take it, but I prefer a real relationship over a booty call.

    It gets buttery once you realize that it isn't about fighting, it is about ignoring. Just do anything you want, be FREE. Free to do what you please when you want for fun and for pet projects etc. The more you fight urges, the more you give them acknowledgement and allow them to have power. But when you ignore them and simply dismiss them, it soon becomes as if they don't exist. They come very very rarely.

    I feel really good. I think at about 30 days no MO is when I hit my peak energy. After about 50 days no P, it got easier, a lot easier.

    As I am sure we all know, everyone will still have and I still have urges now and then, but I think they arise about every 30-50 days on average, and they are weaker than before.

    Thanks man, I can't wait til you reach 100 days again! I know it'll happen soon.

    Thanks Pedigree, I hope the visa situation and the move goes smoothly and happily for you. You're headed for a better life, and a greater inner serenity now, I know it.

    Thanks. My energy level, happiness, and greater self-control happened recently in the last 30 days due to now being on that keto diet you presented to me. Lean meats and lots of veggies with only maybe 40-50 grams of carbs a day has really done wonders for me. Thank you for the advice, it has been great. I am losing fat like crazy in combination with my workout. Almost 2 pounds a week!
  7. gameover

    gameover Age: 26

    Glad to hear it. Its a really good and powerful diet.
  8. J.P.

    J.P. Active Member

    Aaaaand forgot to eat dinner because I was streaming.

    Man I can be dumb sometimes
  9. J.P.

    J.P. Active Member

  10. BanquosGhost

    BanquosGhost Member

    Just wanted to add my voice to the chorus man. The last run did read pretty easy, and I take on board what you say about it not being a fight. I remember your earlier journal posts when it very much was a fight, and sure, that approach didn't work. However your dedication to keep coming back when you were struggling says a lot about your character.

    Congratulations my friend, and thanks for all your support. I'm sure you are going to be a great success after you graduate - and you deserve it all.


  11. I am sad

    I am sad New Member

    Well done, JP! You are awesome! Definitely keep yourself busy now that the semester ended. Being bored gets old real quick, so make yourself a list of things you want to do, or brainstorm for a new project or goal to set, unrelated to all this stuff. When I have a project to work on, life is so much more enjoyable and purposeful. BTW, try Claritin for your allergies, or if that doesn't work, try another (different ingredients work for different people). I was shocked yesterday I spent 3 hours in the woods and didn't sneeze once! Just came home with two ticks and still very creeped out! Eww!

    I will PM you soon,
  12. J.P.

    J.P. Active Member

    Lost 5 pounds since last week.

    Kicking ass and taking names.

    Home alone and bored all morning for the past week. No real urges to watch any hardcore or nasty stuff.

    But I have searched for portraits of girls on Google, but I search specifically for the eyes and face. I have this new thing for eyes, it's like my new kryptonite. I should go out and see eyes in person, not on a screen. But it is better than what I was doing a year ago for sure. And I only did it twice, so no worse for wear I guess.

    Had an excellent workout today, have a meeting tomorrow morning at 9 for work, but other than that I plan on relaxing. I feel pretty care-free most of the day, and I aim to keep it that way.

    Hope everyone is having a great weekend.
  13. J.P.

    J.P. Active Member

    Read a post from UD that opened my eyes to my next ugly habit that I will try to dismiss; masturbating.

    I have not masturbated to orgasm or really porn fantasy in a long time. But I have M'd recently and I want it to stop, so I made a counter to keep accountability.

    99.999% of the time it happens in the morning when I am groggy, or as I have said before when I am stuffed up and my allergies are killing me. I have tried everything from zyrtec and Claritin to nasonex (and I HATE putting things in my nose). Nothing works, but when I get sexually aroused, the runny nose and stuffiness stop for a time, it is not a good excuse, but it is not like I am not letting urges roll off me, I am not giving in, just being a baby I guess.

    So I will keep this counter and I will try not touching myself altogether until I reach 200 days no P. Then after that I will MO from time to time (whenever I feel a need to). If I am not getting laid or in a relationship by then, I might as well. Hell, YBOP recommends it even.

    I just want it to no longer be a habit, I want it to become something under my absolute control, not something that has control over me.

    Ok guys, let's do this, hold me to my word.
  14. ModusVivendi

    ModusVivendi New Member

    ^Jeezy, used to once be the greatest rapper.

    100 days eh? Alright alright, ;) good job dawg.
  15. gameover

    gameover Age: 26

    Your doing great Joe.
  16. Chammorrow

    Chammorrow Member

    lol He was never the greatest..but he was a very good artist ( when the recession came out)..I think T.I is better than him but you can't go wrong wity young jeeze lol
  17. J.P.

    J.P. Active Member

    Had some weird serious cravings today for the average looking girl I watched long ago, but not for the fake ass looking makeup monsters so I guess it's slightly a good sign. I just had to chill out and put it into perspective, the cravings aren't a crisis, no need to panic or think things aren't working, it just is there, and will dissipate soon enough.

    Gonna go to the gym. I hope everyone is doing fine. I will post when I get back.

    The unread replies are enormous, I just don't feel the need to keep up with all of it anymore, doing my own thing. UD needs to implement a way to opt out of that lol
  18. IronGlider

    IronGlider New Member

    Excellent progress Jp91, fantastic!

    Seems like you got this addiction on lock down! And reacting that way to the girl is indeed a very positive sign on where things are going.

    P.S. Really need to take the first step and just get back into my exercise routine.
  19. J.P.

    J.P. Active Member

    Had a fucked up dream last night/this morning, I woke up scared shitless.

    I was browsing entire pages and tabs of super hardcore porn of many types. I mean hundreds of images and dozens of videos, I am not happy I had that dream at all.

    However, even as I slept, I could feel my "eyes" (in the dream of course) trying to close, to avoid it, to run from it. I suppose this is the good sign of the dream, that although I was not in control as it was a dream, I was still making the effort to avoid relapsing.

    I wish I dreamt about something else that made me happy, but I just have to live with it, it happened, and now it's over. It was almost a wet dream, but I am glad it was not. No mess to clean up, and no possibility of chaser effect.

    I'm cool, so don't worry, just a little shaken up at the absolute intense obscenity of the stuff I saw in my dream.

    Best thing I can do is forget this dream as fast as possible and move on.
  20. CidGuerreiro

    CidGuerreiro Well-Known Member

    I've had dreams like that too, when I was watching porn and concious of how I was screwing up. I don't think it really means anything, your brain misses its fix, that's no big news.

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