Failure To Success Require Persistence.

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by Lakaf, Oct 23, 2019.

  1. Lakaf

    Lakaf Active Member

    Day 1 starts Now need help and support.
     
  2. Joshua Shea

    Joshua Shea Active Member

    Why don't you tell us more about yourself?
     
  3. Lakaf

    Lakaf Active Member

    Am 24 years now trying to do nofap no porn from 4 years.
    My highest streak is 180 days and more.
    I was so cool, socially great and outgoing at that time.
    And nowadays I am unable to control it.
    My soul needs more of it and my bday is also coming in few days.
    I don't feel to go out and feel fear of something that I don't know.
     
    Last edited: Oct 26, 2019
  4. NewStart19

    NewStart19 Active Member

    @Lakaf

    I agree with Joshua. It would be great to hear more about your experiences and journey.

    In the meantime though, I wish you the best of luck with recovery!

    Take care
     
  5. Joshua Shea

    Joshua Shea Active Member

    @Lakaf Are you trying to abstain because you have a real addiction or because you think it's a morally bad thing to do? You say that you control it now. How? What do you mean that you feel fear over something you don't know?
     
  6. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Member

    @Lakaf are you saying this because I also wrote the same in my journal. Generally what happens is when you see somebody writing a similar thing one believes he is facing the same because he is not sure what he is actually facing.


    Anyways if facing the same I am also facing the same.
     
  7. Freedom from Servitude

    Freedom from Servitude Active Member

    I am also a bit confused. If you feel as though you can control your porn use, what are you doing on here?

    I have been in recovery for a long time and I know that there is no compromise when it comes to porn consumption, you either commit to abstinence and succeed and reap the benefits or the addiction will take over.

    Best of luck with whatever you are trying to achieve.
     
  8. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Member

    @Freedom from Servitude even I feel I no longer have urges to watch porn or masturbate .But I still come to this forum to write and kitna how I face all this while. I haven't had morning woods since months. There is no erection while I get a wet dream. I sleep very badly. Sometimes half asleep the whole night .Just turning from one side to the other. Visiting psychs trying to get this sorted. Searching for all possible solutions for the sleep, fatigue tiredness and depression .I have also Become quite weak and feel worst when I wake up. All this is going since over a year now.
     
  9. Lakaf

    Lakaf Active Member

    @NewStart19 Dude i feel so depressed and weak and so unmotivated when i watch porn and fap and also i feel lazy.
    And When i go for higher streak my confidence comes back and something in my life happens like this time i got a pimple in my nose and cheek after abstraining from 60 days and some people in my college told me its because of heat and so i watched porn and fapped. Now i am feeling regretted about it.
     
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  10. Lakaf

    Lakaf Active Member

    @Joshua Shea Dude, I feel am doing something wrong in my room watching porn and fapping with my hands and feel ashame about it. Even my gains are decreasing because of it and face is filling with much pimples and i am unable to control my soul. I think am born to do great things in my life and achieve it but fapping is making me unmotivated and lazy and also am sleeping much because of which am wasting my precious time.
    And by fear my body is shaking when i go out and i am unable to control my words as if i am misbalanced.
     
  11. Lakaf

    Lakaf Active Member

    @Mickeymouse Dude, you are doing great even while struggling all things and this require high will power which i wanna obtain again.
    The only thing i obtained is emotions and now am so much emotionally unstable.
     
  12. Lakaf

    Lakaf Active Member

    @Freedom from Servitude Sorry dude that was writing mistake as i am unstable so i think am making much mistake as of watching porn and fapping.
     
  13. Lakaf

    Lakaf Active Member

    Day 2 success! yesterday i was having urge to fap and watch porn one last time.
    My mind is saying to watch porn and fap one last time which leds me to never ending addiction.
    I am still controlling my mind by saying this time only 87 days left for 90 days streak.
    I want to again feel the changes i felt earlier.
    I wrote in my book, how i was when i had greater streak and it felt amazing.
    I watched porn and fapped because of a girl also and i want to move forward but cannot because of it.
    I will do it this time and while writing it i am still feeling to cry. I have became emotionally weak.
     
  14. Lakaf

    Lakaf Active Member

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  15. Lakaf

    Lakaf Active Member

    Day 3 success.
    I am still afraid of something but i feel fresh today.
    86 Day for 90 Day target.
     
  16. Lakaf

    Lakaf Active Member

    4 Day success.
    I am feeling damn low today woke up with a pimple on my chin.
     
  17. Lakaf

    Lakaf Active Member

    5 Day Success.
    Yesterday, I was feeling good but still a fear for going out remains. I feel like something bad will happen when I go out or maybe something else. Also, my neigbour girl comes to visit even now am feeling shy and fear from her. What the fuck happened to me.? Why I became like this.? I want to increase my social network with girl but its becoming harder everyday.
    I use to speak with her but I was unable to yesterday as I was just hiding and quite.Also their was a group pic un which i was not interested.
     
  18. NewStart19

    NewStart19 Active Member

    @Lakaf

    I hear you. This addiction makes me feel depressed, unmotivated, lazy, my verbal fluency plummets, and so on and so on. So you definitely have my sympathy.

    There are plenty pieces of advice I could give, but--seeing as you have had successful periods of abstinence in the past--I would advise you to remember the benefits of living a porn-free life that you actually experienced. Remember that they were real. Don't let the addict brain trick you into casting doubt on your past success. You experienced it and know it is real. In some ways you're lucky, because you've tried out recovery and found it improved the quality of your life. There are some addicts that have relapsed so frequently that they doubt whether or not recovery will actually yield any benefits because they themselves have yet to experience them. So I definitely recommend using your past experience to help guide you toward recovery.

    I also hope you don't worry too much about your pimples. If people are ragging on you about them, then they are just being inconsiderate. Get more time under your belt and you might notice a change. You can also see a dermatologist and see what they have to say. There may also be some skin care routines you could look up online. I'm not too knowledgeable about skin care and maintenance, but I'm sure there are plenty of options out there. Experiment with them, and who knows, you might be the next model I see in a Nivea advertisement.

    Take care
     
  19. Lakaf

    Lakaf Active Member

    @NewStart19 Dude, Yeah benefits were awesome and it made me feel aggressive and open minded also daring to do something big.
    I want to go in that energetic phase again.
    6 Day Success.
     
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  20. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Member

    So do take anti depressants?
     

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