Yeah, I'm not sure if I'm subconsciously sabotaging my efforts at becoming bored and present, or if I just have these strong habits towards filling up all my time with some kind of stimulation. I'm a pain-eating machine, though, so I think I can handle it. I read a lot of that kind of stuff at one point. Looking at things in a non-judgmental way helps, but can also become a crutch of sorts. Thanks for the vacation wish.