I started my journey to giving up porn addiction exactly one month ago after having found YBOP. Within this month i have relapsed many times. The longest i lasted without PMO was 7 days. I can honestly say that i definitely saw a positive difference in those 7 days, but unfortunately i relapsed many times thereafter. But Enough is enough!, and i am not going back to this sick life of porn addiction. The depression is killing me, and my social anxiety has hit the roof and i am 100% certain this is due to my PMO, of which i have been a victim for the past 15 years. I am an IT professional who works from home, so the temptation is pretty much in my face. I have filters on my computer, such as OpenDNS, and have taken steps to prevent myself from disabling the filters. However i have not been able to throw away the passwords, out of the worry that i might need them incase there is a problem with computer, or if i need to access a website for my work which has been blocked. So the best i am able to do is keep my passwords locked away in my car, but that is still not a safe distance and does not prevent me from relapsing. Anyhow, with my new found knowledge from YBOP, i am adamant to stop this wicked and destructive habit, and get my life back. I am 29 years old, and i dont want to waste any more time of my life, locked away at home, as a depressed, moody, socially anxious recluse. I am married since 2 years, and my wife has no knowledge of my addiction, but my distance from her when it comes to sex has caused many rifts in our relationship, as i am not able to relate to her emotionally due how messed up my brain has become because of PMO. Today, on the start of my journal is my first real step to giving up this ruinous and injurious habit once and for all. I have been reading the journals of others on here and must say they are very inspiring and motivating. I hope over the course of my recovery my journal helps me, but also helps others on their path to recovery. Together we can defeat this menace and reclaim our lives from the clutches of this monster.