A reminder to myself that I really shouldn't MO because when I do I binge for many days and have trouble to get out of it. The following days after my last post: 2 MO, 5 MO, 6 MO, x (no binge), x, 2 MO. I really have to stop browsing Tinder first thing in the morning. Now been clean from M for 4 days so it is getting a bit easier now to abstain. I have a few challenges, injured in the gym for 4 weeks so have not worked out, just got back doing some light weight/rehab now and will prob take a month more or so before I can go 100%. Basically lost all my gains this year so that sucks but hopefully next year will be better. Also have been alone all weekend which has not been great.. I have too few friends and they are out of town. Went to the beach alone, have not done that in years but it was quite refreshing. Better than staying at home. I have also tried to set up a date for next week but I have no real success on Tinder anymore. We will see if I can fix something. My vision for myself is one free from P, a confident, outgoing, ambitious and fit man. I have a lot to work to be more outgoing. I just have to do the best with what I have. Maybe should try some new class, like martial arts beginning class or something this autumn so I have a change to make more friends.