Discussion in 'Pornography Addiction' started by al1234, Jun 19, 2013.
too late... IT FUCKING Happened! shit!
AT LEAST DISCIPLINE YOUR BRAIN TO NOT BINGE!
I feel light now....
All the cravings r gone... don't think I will turn to porn now...
Well this is bad, I went good for around 28 days then the urges got me.
I will not make this worse by pmo'ing again. If I can just cope this up and go and not make the same mistake it wiould be great.
Well the filters didn't do shit in stopping me.
I just used to forgot pass option and just bypassed it. BIG MISTAKE EVER!
Also I got carried away. I thought i was free but then it came unexpectedly.
This was my first try in Hard mode.
Gonna go hard mode again but this time will not make the same mistakes. If I get any slight urges now, Imma just get my ass outta the house and take a loong walk.
Good for you!
But don't feel so bad. I personally can't get past 1-2 days :-[
3 days 17 hrs is my best 8)
Changed the k9 recovering email to an address which doesnt exist now using those temporaring disposable email services.
Well if the urges hit me, I am this time damn sure that I wont be able to bypass it.
I am hungry, tired and sleepy right now.
I am just glad I o'ed 1 time and it didn't escalate any further, it would have been better if i didnt relapse, but oh well Gotta learn from ur mistakes and move on.
Gonna reorganize myself tomorrow. This time imma make sure this was my last PMO session.
Strong urges today. I think they're mostly brought on by a dream last night where I had a full-blown relapse. Gotta stay focused.
I've had those dreams too. Read a book, meditate, go outside, call a friend - keep yourself busy!
Closing the laptop now. Going to take my pre-workout and lift some weights. Thanks Newnes!
Works for me!
I've had a few drinks for lunch. Now I was about to watch a tv series, some advertising pages popped up. Advertising is for a sexcam website I guess. I watched all the girls on the page in a few seconds and closed it.
Strong cravings, butterflies in the stomach. Alcohol isn't helping.
Breath and do something that takes you away from the moment.
Thanks. I went to the groceries and walked around, outside
Hi guys, I know it sounds pussy, but I had a huge fight with an old friend regarding to some issues. It's a female, she used to be my friend, but in the end, I realise that she just care about herself. I am angry and upset about this, and then I realise I just want to relapse...
anyway I can stop this? URGENT!
Don't think about her. If that's what I think, she's a narcissist.
Go for a walk, learn about narcissism and related behaviours, and if she matches it, stay away from her.
No overwhelming urges for me, but I do get those moments almost out of habit where I think about doing it. This thread is a really good idea though. Recognition is absolutely key to start the healing process. If you blur the line between a normal healthy urge and an addictive unhealthy urge, falling back into it is infinitely easier.
These moments are vital for us to recover, we need to experience some good old fashioned anger, rejection, pain, and re-teach ourselves the truth that PMO has as much of a chance of helping us with this as a blade of grass. Seriously, visualize yourself relapsing and ask yourself if that is how a man deals with pain?
Thanks. I did not relapse, it's always hard in the beginning but yeah.
I've gotten rid of my toxic friends and family, but now I'm alone and lonely and the bad thoughts are creeping in. "Psst....remember those granny porn scenes you love? Go watch one! Or maybe even get an escort and let them fuck you in the ads you dirty son of a bitch. BITCH BIYCH BITCH. you can't handle anything you fucking pussy. Eat shit and die and fuck yourself over. Now go watch tranny porn. NOW!!!"
Love this addiction, so much fun.
Just finished the course I was studying last weekend. I started non-PMO with about 2 weeks left to go and it was pretty cruisy during that time. But now that I have finished, I sit in my room and I got nothing to keep me getting bored except my computer. I know I should be going to the gym or cleaning my room but I'm just not doing it (I was actually more active when I WAS doing PMO). My laziness I attribute to something else entirely. However, I have not relapsed. The urges are fairly strong but I know what I want to get out of No-PMO.
I want to cure my PIED and obtain these 'social superpowers' (especially with women) that some guys have got from no-PMO (though I'm not THAT socially awkward anyway). Even though I do enjoy porn and I don't think my time not PMOing is going to change that, the positives from non-PMO outweigh the positives of porn. Now I just gotta get myself in positions where I can go to a social gathering, find a partner and have sex. The trouble is, I rarely have opportunities to do that. I'm 20 now and I don't think I've had a legitimate chance to have a real great encounter with a girl since high school.
I am currently nearing 3 weeks (20 days) of no PMO. Just another 20, and another 20, another 20 and possibly another 20. No biggie. That's the standard. After that tho, if I haven't had the opportunity to really have a great sexual/intimate experience (I actually look forward moreso to the kissing and cuddling part than anything else) with a girl, let's just say I'll be flipping a coin to see if I relapse or not.
That's where I'm at fellas. A bit of indifference at the moment.
thank you. i have just relapsed.
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