Hello all, Decided to make a more to the point focused journal as my story was a bit long winded in my last one and I fell off the wagon. My heads a bit clearer now and by the end of the month I will be 27 and need to tackle this. For my full story see my other posts. Currently on day 7 no PMO. Here's my basic issue in points: - I have a preference for curvier women. - Always had trouble getting an erection with girls. Only managed to have sex with one girl who I had a 2 year relationship with but it took a while with her probably pied/anxiety but after a couple of months sex life got better but I incorporated the preference - she was chubby and gained some weight and had a belly. - I romantically and personality wise get on with lots of girls who are slim and perfect for me in every way for my life apart from an arousal point of view. Often get asked on dates but have to brush them off because of the fetish. - Believe the internet and uneducated choices of viewing materials and excessive masterbation have crippled my love life. Remember as a young boy having crushes on normal sized girls (don't know about arousal though). And when a little older an erection cuddling a normal sized girl. - As it is now and always really I'm getting into bed with attractive girls and having no reaction down there because of all this which is distressing!! Please comment with advice on ways forward and support. Anyone with any advice relating to this.