Having complications in my relationship at the moment. My girlfriend is being understanding, but I feel like I'm reverting to old habits. I've rid myself of gay male porn but now I can't stop watching lesbian porn which was my initial favorite genre. Sex with my girlfriend is ok. I don't know what to do. If this relationship ends I know I'm going to go full throttle back to jerking off like I used to. I wish porn didn't exist. My backup story is 2 failed relationships with older women due to ED, one of which I found out recently is dead and I can't help but feel like my failed attempt at pleasing her with her with my dead dick is what may have pushed her over the edge. I feel like absolute crap.