Hi quitpornfoo, yes, I do remember you. Glad to hear that you are more advanced into the rewiring and reaping benefits. That gives me some hope, at the very least. I did try anti-depressants. All failed. I think my gf keeps a list of all I tried somewhere (7-8 I recall) for me. I've tried them under the advice of two different therapists but all these antidepressants kill my libido, kill all my motivation and basically make me feel like a dumb automa. No good. Even after one month, no progresses. I'd rather keep the depression + some motivation that occasional PMOing gave me back at the time. At least I could do stuff, even in the limited time that the worse moments of depression allowed me to. I do cuddle with my girlfriend and we did some light sex, occasionally. It is fine, but I'm not a huge fan of it. I feel like I should be rewired by now, and my ED has long since disappeared. Yet the depression only worsened compared to when I was "less rewired", and I'm baffled to why. If I had rewired for a few months only, I could understand that to counterweight the damage done in years I'd need more time. But it's been 4 years now, and I've never been as hopeless and depressed as in the last weeks. Something is off.