Day 5. It's been a wild month of pmo binges and withdrawal, but I wanted this time away from my journal to truly work on a blocking situation that will work for me. I know many of you guys stick by your guns when you say blockers aren't going to be effective, but I've come to the realization that I do not have the willpower to break this addiction on my own. After much trial and error these past few weeks, I've come up with a situation that works which involves turning off all internet capabilities of my iPhone, using the parental controls of my router, employing the K9 tools as well as manipulating the hosts file of my 2 PCs. I've still got a ways to go, but I'd rather be addicted to locking myself out from porn than being addicted to porn itself. I've also erased my Galaxy S8 smartphone in preparations to sell it. Anyone want a blazingly fast mobile device for $50? It's on the StraightTalk network and less than a year old. Let me know. Maybe something good that happened just this past week is that I've cracked the code in regards to my premature ejaculation issues. I've always tried holding a strong kegal as soon as sex begins, which always backfires horribly. I've read accounts on pegym.com where people fix their PE by holding a reverse kegal during the entire ordeal, but I've never gone into it like that because I'm always afraid I won't keep my erection long enough for penetration. Well, on Tuesday afternoon we had an hour with the kids still in school for an episode, so I went into this thing doing a reverse kegal even before we got in the shower together. To my surprise, this thing actually worked! We had continuous penetration for a good 2-3 minutes and I never even felt the need to have an orgasm. My muscles started to give at this point, and I switched over to holding a regular kegal. I had to O within 20-30 seconds after doing so. I never thought this would work, but apparently it does. I need to work some muscle groups in my core in order to be able to hold that reverse kegal longer, but this is obviously a step in the right direction from always have to ruin sex 20-30 seconds into it. My wife was even able to O from the penetration alone, I was stunned! Since the majority of my pmo addiction stems from my inability to last during sex, I'm feeling much, much better about myself. The need/want to watch porn hasn't arisen since that encounter, and I hope to build on this so I get to the point that I never want to binge again. If I'm able to please my wife in that regard, porn becomes pointless and the fantasies should dissipate. Hopefully. Big weekend coming up. Wife will be gone away for work 3 straight days. I'm doing some tile work in our bathroom, so I hope to involve myself with that completely to stave off any upcoming urges. That and writing the rest of an album. Here's to an early Spring Renaissance!