Don't Count Days, Just Stay Off Porn & Masturbation

Discussion in 'Ages 40+' started by 40New30, Nov 26, 2013.

  1. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    Even though I feel good today, my brain just still isn't working right. I feel retarded. Fuck, this sucks!
     
  2. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    Major mood swing, headaches. PAWS.
     
  3. Stay up champ.
    Getting closer to the mountaintop, eyes on the prize
     
  4. TDP

    TDP Member

    Hope things are better today. Mood swings can really zap you.
     
  5. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    Marston, I have the opposite problem right now -- DE. Which is great, no O's.

    Last night's mood swing was ferocious, I was irate at little nonsense things. (I'm definitely a very long rebooter.) Feeling better right now, I knew that wasn't going to last more than a few hours.
     
  6. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    I always had DE to some existent ever since I started having sex. The only exception was when I was on Wellbutrin, then PE; I prefer DE.

    Quick updates on progress front:

    - spontaneous erections, check
    - morning wood, check
    - stable moods, less giving a fucks, check
    - fogginess, fading
    - poor coordination is a new symptoms, dry drunk like
    - sleeping too much
    - anxiety, 98% gone
     
  7. ananoman

    ananoman Active Member

    its amazing how far you have gone.
     
  8. leannfit

    leannfit New Member

    DE has always been an issue, I had no idea it was due to porn
    I'll be glad when my reboot clears that up, not that I'm going to "test it out" till I get in my 90days and get back some MW
    I like the free time/energy that I have gained by NOT PMOing, just like the money that appeared in my BA when I stopped smoking and drinking daily
    wow, life is good again
    and getting better
     
  9. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    It's really not that amazing, ananoman...if I had gotten this far on my first try in 2012 that would have been amazing. I've fucked up as much as anyone. But, what is amazing is I feel like anybody can finally make the breakthrough. Never give up.

    This really will be a life long struggle, and I don't mean that I will think about this every day, but there will be urges in the future, probably for life. You have to know that, we have to know that we have made serious changes to our brains. Also, we have to make certain lifestyle changes in order to stay afloat. We have to work on ourselves become stronger, better, and resilient or we will succumb to our addiction.

    I'm still not back to 100%, but I'm light years further than I was at the beginning of this reboot, I sincerely feel big changes coming the in the next 2 - 3 months. I was a serious addict and these brain changes take a long time. It's good to know that I'm through the worst of it and that I'm not going back.
     
  10. a short guy

    a short guy Well-Known Member

    Yes it is amazing :)
     
  11. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    That's for stopping in, TG. You are one of my pillars, nice to see you winning again, I knew you would be back on top of it. No shame in falling off the horse or having trouble getting back on it, it happens to the very best of us.
     
  12. a short guy

    a short guy Well-Known Member

    Thanks for the lift up. I'm doing my best to stay in the saddle.
     
  13. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    Just when you think you're out...it pulls you back in! Ha. I'm talking about anxiety attacks, actually had one last night...first one in weeks.

    I feel like it's an echo from the PMO days. I've said on here I fully expect changes to keep coming for months, probably a couple of years. Makes sense that the very occasional, perhaps intense "withdrawal" symptom will pop up from time to time. PAWS theory agree with this.

    Erections & libido is inching up, but at times libido and dick-mind connections still turn off. Other times libido is so high that I feel like I'm 15. It's going to be a long road after roughly 30 years of masturbating/edging and like 17 years of high speed internet.

    Interestingly enough I felt further along in previous shorter reboots...so, I think there is a real danger to long binge relapses after a reboot. It is possible that if you fall way off the wagon for a few months, your future attempts will be longer. It's been commented on here before; either way I'm streaking with no urges, better and better.
     
  14. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    Still some weird little echoes of the old PMO days hanging around, but feeling more and more stable and in the moment.

    Here's the good part, I had sex yesterday with my girlfriend (no ED meds) and my dick was ragingly hard. It was harder than on any ED med, seriously, like stone.

    There's some bad news in there too though so let's not throw a party just yet, I felt my brain searching around for mental images and fantasies. That shit is gonna die hard. The sensations during sex are much more powerful at this point, but I'm still in DE mode. So, it's totally random and non-linear...as you would expect.

    Expecting great improvements at the 6 month mark and 12 month mark, probably even the 18 month mark, but not thinking about it, just living my life.
     
  15. TDP

    TDP Member

    Great news! Glad to read about the progress. I noticed also the heightened sensations during sex with my wife over the weekend. Sensations I haven't felt in a long, long time. This process works. I'm a definite believer.
     
  16. Arizona

    Arizona All answers can be found within

    Just got back from vacation. Nice ging you passed the 100.
    Just curious (only read a couple replies back); do you make love (already?) with your gf, or is that also off schedule while rebooting…
     
  17. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    Nice man! Once you get a taste you'll know it really f'ing works! Just gotta stay on the path.
     
  18. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    Arizona, we have sex and I do not orgasm, yet. I've got DE right now anyway, so it all works out; she is fine with me not "finishing" as long as she gets her orgasms...and she definitely does.

    The last one was off the charts, and now I know for certain that it's due to extreme hardness of erection.

    Again, it's not all roses, there's a long way to go, mind was searching for mental images during sex, wasn't hard super quickly, still got the DE. Long way to go. But, yes I have erections back, zero meds.
     
  19. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    I'm sleeping A LOT. Erections keep improving, but I don't feel "right", just more withdrawals. Lovely.
     
  20. onesea

    onesea Active Member

    40New30,

    Your reboot seems to be all over the place. Some great days, others not so much. Is this something I should be experiencing or is it just so individual? My issues are different since I have depression and that may be keeping me from the ups and downs since I'm on meds. More than anything I just feel more anxiety and restlessness and with that an increased libido. Sleep is still not normal but it is slowly getting there.

    I was just wondering about your withdrawals.

    onesea
     

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