Documentation of my progress

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by LettingGo, Jul 11, 2021.

  1. LettingGo

    LettingGo New Member

    It's been 6 days of no PMO. This time I didn't make any special plan to quit, initially at least. I'm staying with a friend for some time. The combination of being away from home, focus on work, and no contact with trigger materials have kept me clean the past 6 days.

    But I've been having mild headache for a couple of hours now, and I had a "wet dream" the other day. I immediately recognized the signs from past attempts at quitting porn. My brain is seeking the harmful material again. And that's not normal. I decided to read some "your brain on porn" material to get an understanding of what the problem is, and then read some of the threads here, I decided to document mine as well.

    This is a little introduction. I hope to do this daily. They say you can't improve what you're not measuring. This is my attempt at measuring. And my attempt at self-therapy. I read, and experienced, writing helps to get out of your own head. I can't afford a therapist, but this is better than doing nothing. I would appreciate any help from the community about beating this addiction. Thanks.


    Are there apps to track the days of nofap?
     
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  2. LettingGo

    LettingGo New Member

    Day 7. No PMO.
     
  3. LettingGo

    LettingGo New Member

    Day 8. No PMO.

    Was in a location with a lot of ladies today. Had to actively block out sexualizing thoughts. This is one of the worst effects of porn imo.

    But I had no temptation to indulge later in the day, so grateful for that. I think my triggers are hunger, anger, loneliness and a shitty day.

    Tomorrow, we let go, again!
     
  4. LettingGo

    LettingGo New Member

    Day 9, no PMO. Feel great, no mental fogs, no headaches.

    Tomorrow, we let go, again.
     
  5. LettingGo

    LettingGo New Member

    Day 10. No PMO. Mild headache in the evening. Grateful.

    Tomorrow, we let go, again.
     
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  6. LettingGo

    LettingGo New Member

    Day 11. No PMO. Grateful.

    Tomorrow is another day to let go.
     
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  7. LettingGo

    LettingGo New Member

    Days 12 and 13. No PMO.

    One day at a time.
     
  8. LettingGo

    LettingGo New Member

    Day 14. No PMO.

    Mild headache in the evening. Low motivation to get things done. Not too hard to keep moving. Grateful.

    One day at a time.
     
  9. LettingGo

    LettingGo New Member

    Day 15. No PMO.

    Sexual thoughts crossed my mind today but I didn't try to ignore it, nor did I succumb to it. I told myself I am an able bodied man, it is only human to want sex. What I would not do however is to substitute the real with the fake. To debase my mind with motion graphics on a screen.

    The approach worked, the thoughts went away without me struggling hard to overcome it.

    Tomorrow, we let go, again.
     
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    Day 16. No PMO.

    Tomorrow, we let go again.
     
  11. LettingGo

    LettingGo New Member

    Day 17. No PMO.

    Mild headache at the moment. Bearable.

    Tomorrow, we let go again.
     
  12. LettingGo

    LettingGo New Member

    Day 18. No PMO.

    No urges. No headaches.

    Tomorrow, we let go again.
     
  13. neelloo

    neelloo New Member

    Congrats on 18 days! I'm working to get there as well.
    Letting go, one day at a time. I like that.
     
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  14. LettingGo

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    Day 19. No PMO.

    Sexual dream in the morning, and mild urge when I woke up. Again, I tried to reason my way through it. Acknowledged what I'm feeling, and said a big NO. No urges for the rest of the day.

    The urges today were induced by the dancing women clip I watched on YouTube I believe. I need to be more careful.

    Tomorrow, we let go, again.
     
  15. LettingGo

    LettingGo New Member

    Thanks. It does feel easier taking it one day at a time. Even though this is the longest I've been off porn in about 4 years, I have no big milestone this time around. Just trying not to depend on porn to get through the day.

    Good luck on your journey. Rooting for you.
     
  16. LettingGo

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    Day 20. No PMO. Involuntary ejaculation/wet dream.

    I was barely awake in the morning, was dreaming, barely sexual. But I was laying on my stomach, and that's the position I used to take when I used to indulge. Next I knew, ejaculation and became immediately awake.
    No P or M afterwards.

    I don't know if I should count this as an orgasm, but I don't/won't consider it a failure or beat myself up about it. Looking back however, I could see some triggers and learn from it.

    The women dancing clip from day 19.
    The laying on my stomach.
    The late night of movies I had, so was too tired to get up early.
    The little work I did during the day, my mind would have wandered around.

    I take it all as a lesson.

    Tomorrow, we let go again.
     
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  17. LettingGo

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    Day 21 and 22. No PMO.

    One day at a time.
     
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  18. LettingGo

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    Day 23. No PMO.

    Had the urge to indulge earlier in the day. I was hungry, not working and alone in the room. Those are usual suspects: hunger, anger, loneliness.
    Quickly got up to work and played East to West by Casting Crowns. That song puts me in the right mood, useful to kick the urge.

    Tomorrow, we let go, again.
     
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  19. LettingGo

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    Day 24. No PMO.

    No headaches today. None in the past couple of days as well.

    I need to be even more active in blocking out mildly sexual content. They bring back all the obscene images of the past, and I don't want to test my will power in that manner.

    Anyways, 24 days sober. Life is great.

    Tomorrow, we let go, again.
     
  20. LettingGo

    LettingGo New Member

    Day 25. No PMO.
     

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