Thank you @forlorn ! I have been working out on the patio in good weather and limiting my time in the basement. I think that's really helped over the last few months as I've been consistently been hitting 2 week streaks. Which is good. The bad thing is I'm a little stuck at hitting 2 weeks and then relapsing! Ha. But I'm getting some clarity. And the failure is consistent. When I know I'm going to get a few hours of time home alone, I've failed to prepare a few days out by calling and setting up accountability. If I wait until the day before to do that, I'm teetering and debating about indulging and I am prone to fail so close to the event, when my thinking is getting murkier and cloudy. So that is something practical I need to do next time. It used to be Mondays, but now with school schedules changing it is Wednesday afternoons where the house may be empty 3-4 hours. So on Sunday or Monday at the latest I need to call a buddy and set up a check in or chat. I love how you remind me that the longer we stay clean the better we feel and the shame will ebb away. With my relapses spacing out to 14 days, and being a one-and-done relapses, the guilt and shame seems to be more intense the night of and the day after, but it seems to fade very quickly after that as I enjoy practically living without PMO.