Hey, as @-Luke- wrote: every day without porn is a little victory. And besides we just need to focus on this day. Oftentimes when I spend time on PMOing when I should have worked I think 'oh, I wish I had done something else with my time, even if it is not working'. Everything is better than acting out, even if it is just reading a book, going for a run or watching a move while you should work. And maybe that is even where the need to act out sometimes comes from: the need to have time for yourself, calm down and gain strength and motivation to be able to do the things we need to do. It is a balance, right? Well, anyway, I hope you are able to forget about your relapse cycle and keep your head in the right direction.