Was dreaming about having the opportunity to watch P on my computer last night. Like last time when I was seriously committed to giving up, I dreamed that I kept accidentally stumbling across various tempting links, thumbnails and soft preview images, but kept making the choice not to click, and moving on. It's nice to know the subconscious and conscious minds are aligned. I'm convinced that I'll make 'escape velocity' again. It's doing it without M that will be unknown territory. Trying not to think about it too much. Better to deal with immediate/pressing problems, and that isn't one right now.