Detailed 1-90 day report (*complete 90day reboot* with charts&stats)

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  1. delightful

    delightful New Member

    Re: Detailed 1-90 day report (**BOOM, 70 day** report with charts&stats)

    Day 82

    Confidence: 4.5/10
    Happiness: 6/10
    Urge: 1.5/10

    Gotta make this quick bc of work - I feel unattractive but don't really mind right now. No sexual urge but a mild nagging to release. Happiness is up.
     
  2. delightful

    delightful New Member

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    Day 83

    confidence: 5/10
    happiness: 5/10
    urge: 3/10

    happy thanksgiving you fapstronauts
     
  3. delightful

    delightful New Member

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    day 84

    confidence: 7/10
    happiness: 6/10
    urge: 0/10

    I'm exhausted, I need to recharge.
    6 days until I conquer this silly challenge - and then the rest of the world.

    Prepare to bow down to King Delightful and Sir. Dixalot, else be sacrificed to the nofap gods.
     
  4. delightful

    delightful New Member

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    day 85

    confidence: 6/10
    happiness: 6/10
    urge: 1/10

    final stretch
     
  5. Re: Detailed 1-90 day report (**BOOM, 70 day** report with charts&stats)

    Hey bud, this is a higher accomplishment, have more positivity! It's an incredible streak, you have also eliminated MO which is a huge challenge as well, this is a massive life change for the better! Head up brother
     
  6. delightful

    delightful New Member

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    Thanks Pat!

    It's not over, yet
     
  7. Re: Detailed 1-90 day report (**BOOM, 70 day** report with charts&stats)

    Look at my avatar man, that's my post-reboot motto. You are right, it is going to get harder, but only because we now have to face things and see reality. But I'd much rather be fighting and trying in reality then living a numbed life of PMO. O and call me Patrick please. It's a stupid thing I know but "Pat" was my name pre-reboot and I always associate it with being beta. Patrick is the new alpha male me :)
     
  8. BackOnTrack

    BackOnTrack Member

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    Hey dude I almost read your whole journal at once, really good stuff.

    Stay strong you will get your libido back!

    I'm so deep in flatline that I even wonder if I would get an errection to porn.
    I won't try but I probably could right?
     
  9. delightful

    delightful New Member

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    Backontrack, don't try it! U probably could and then you might relapse ;)

    Day 86

    Confidence: 7/10
    Happiness: 7/10
    Urge: 1/10

    I remember what urges felt like. That animalistic drive. I still casually 'think' about it but the real drive isn't there anymore. Maybe my previous urge was addiction and my casual thinking is real libido?
    Nahhh, libido must be more. So I guess mine is low and hell, it might stay there for all I know.
     
  10. iHaveSeenEvil

    iHaveSeenEvil Do it for her, the mother of my children.

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    Backontrack & delightful

    My Sir Dixalot is dead too.
    Way deader than at the beginning.

    I am so deep in a flatline that I'm beginning to fear that I'll forever be this way.
    Most of the reboot wasn't this bad, but 80 or so days in I am dead.
     
  11. delightful

    delightful New Member

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    So were both around 80 with completely dead sir. Dixalots???

    Those fuckers. Pun intended?
     
  12. delightful

    delightful New Member

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    day 88

    confidence: 7/10
    happiness:5/10
    urge: 3/10

    Very bad news. Sir Dixalot is dead. I tried reviving him last week and he didnt respond. It took agonizing minutes of hardcore stimulation to revive him even the slightest only to have him die immediately after.

    Earlier, when he could still get hard, he was much smaller than before. We're talking over a fucking inch smaller. what the FUCK.

    Last night I decided (seeing as how shitty things are going for him) that I would cue up some porn (no touching of course, no accidental relapse) I just wanted to see if he would respond. So I went to twitter (around my K9) and searched....
    NOTHING.
    On top of it, I wasnt even really interested or excited. I'm fucking castrated, and my worst fear of being publicly castrated has become my reality.

    2 more days, and Im positive nothing will change by then.

    Thus far in my test, I can attest that Nofap:
    -Made my dick lose at least an inch in size
    -Made it near impossible to even get an erection
    -Eroded my libido to the point where nothing even turns me on

    I did this test with the hope that nofap would CURE those ailments, instead it completely destroyed them.

    fuck.

    I am stopping my study on this site after 90 days, but I'm not stopping nofap, I will go on and journal in private. I think this problem will go away...If not I'll be one of those who comes on and says '200days nofap, my dick literally fell off. fuck you guys'
    ^ the scary thing is I have seen those posts, ugh.


    brb, about to inject pure test into my dick. LIVE GOD DAMN YOU!

    Also, I've noticed my memory getting worse and worse, anyone else experiencing this?
     
  13. iHaveSeenEvil

    iHaveSeenEvil Do it for her, the mother of my children.

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    Yeah man, my dick is lifeless!!!

    OUR SIR DIXALOTS!!! Noooooooo!

    Its like someone pulled the plug on my libido.
    Dead.

    Porn has straight up ruined my life.

    I do get morning wood, so this shit definitely has to be in our brains.
    I am convinced this flatline is nothing more than us killing our dicks.

    It has to be just a libido issue.
    Has to.
    It's not organic.
    I don't feel asexual anymore.
    I want female affection but my libido is deeeeeaaaad.

    I am convinced this is evolution at its finest.
    Survival of the fittest.
    Are the extreme porn addicts being weeded out of the gene pool??

    Fuck evolution, we must fight it.
    We must recover.
    We will recover.
    delightful, do not give up!
     
  14. RJ

    RJ Guest

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    Calm down and try your dicks with real womens. You were trying to get rid of porn excitement for 90+ days and when it really works, so your brains do not cooperate with these pixels, you don't know what to do :D
    Guys, more perspective.
     
  15. delightful

    delightful New Member

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    We are both in the same boat, in the middle of the ocean. Nothing in fucking sight. And there's multiple holes in our shitty boat. We overstayed out nofap welcome and now we have damaged our poor sir dixalots.
    They were hungry, starving, begging - instead we denied them their food and they starved to death.

    My flatline was characterized by no night/morning wood and no urge or desire.
    Now this I do have some morning wood, but sir D feels lifeless.
    I too have desire, I WANT to be with a girl, bad. Except as of last night I discovered I wasn't even excited, and Sir Dixalot remained lifeless...

    You could be right with our libido issue..

    How many days are you in??

    RIP:
    SIR DIXALOT
     
  16. iHaveSeenEvil

    iHaveSeenEvil Do it for her, the mother of my children.

    Re: Detailed 1-90 day report (**BOOM, 70 day** report with charts&stats)

    Still around the day 80 mark.

    It was a sudden onset like last Wednesday.
    While not much excited Sir D, he wasn't this lifeless.

    It's shrunken, feels numb, and has no movement.
    It's like progressively rotting away.
    I have been removed from this mysterious human art known as procreation.

    Our boats are not able to handle this ever increasing storm and waves.
    I feel like my boat has flipped over and is now sinking into the deepest parts of the ocean.
     
  17. delightful

    delightful New Member

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    Mr. Seenevil, may we hug it out and as our boats disappear into the abyss..
    We will hum a saddened tune in remembrance of our dear friends, the Sir Dixalots, as we are slowly swallowed by the increasingly rough ocean waves.

    R.I.P

    Sir. D

    I'm sorry I beat you. I didn't know any better.
     
  18. iHaveSeenEvil

    iHaveSeenEvil Do it for her, the mother of my children.

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    R.I.P. SIR DIXALOTS :'(

    May we embrace each other in this darkened abyss that shall only grow darker.
    Maybe there is something else for us down in these deep waters that we have yet to discover.
    What it is... maybe we will never know.
     
  19. delightful

    delightful New Member

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    Day 89:

    Confidence: 7/10
    Happiness: 5.5/10
    Urge: 2/10

    *whispered echo in the darkness* "one more day.."

    Social skills have been taking a dive this week. I noticed it last week and figured I was just tired - I've been doing shit like laughing at what someone says and then just repeating it, or being lost for words and just wanting to get away from the person in front of me. It's really shitty to witness and realize.
    I've noticed it with everyone I encountered the past 5-6 days. Holy shit, maybe it's because I've been "testing" and trying to get my stupid fucking dick to start working again?
    Fuck you, Sir Dixalot. Fuckin asshole.

    Hmmm, what else....

    Idk.

    90day report tomorrow. I bet the charts look volitale in a tight range.
     
  20. iHaveSeenEvil

    iHaveSeenEvil Do it for her, the mother of my children.

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    Iono if it because you've been 'testing' it, but you're probably have social anxiety because Sir Dixalot is constantly on your mind.

    I was doing alright during most of the reboot, but holy fuck when I hit my hardcore flatline and my dick shriveled up a week ago I couldn't stop paying attention to it.
    Like, my dick felt weird and tightened, and when I would talk to someone, my dick would still feel weird, so I would think about my dick and get upset while looking them in the eyes and then get anxious over my small dick and it just kinda made for a weird interaction, making me seem aloof and awkward. Lol.

    Sir Dixalot over here hasn't been as withdrawn in the past day.
    I definitely am starting to feel mental arousal, but something between the brain and my dick just isn't clicking.
    Like I had some fucking knife in my spinal chord blocking whatever "scientific shit" from happening.
    I kinda started getting a boner when I was brushing my teeth. Didn't realize I was thinking about sex until I started feeling a slight blood surge. <----wayyyyyy different than the past 5 days.

    Our Sir Dixalots are dead right now, but they have been good to us so far- I think they shall have an afterlife.
    A beautiful afterlife of much fun and energy and excitement.
    And this afterlife shall happen in the nearing future while we are still young. =)
     

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