I always wanted to break this terrible addiction and finally I did it. Now I have an opposite effect: I am thinking to get back to it because I remember how good I felt jerking to some hardcore shit, and sex is not that good compared to PMO feelings. I realize that this is a crazy thought but still this is how I feel sometimes recently. It's not because I have urges again, it's just my conscious choice. And I am afraid of such mindset because it can get me back into that deep dark pit that I managed to get out of. Has any of you had similar thoughts? Does anyone think that PMO, possibly, is not that bad and is not worth fighting against?