I posted my journal in the wrong place (https://yourbrainrebalanced.com/forum/index.php?threads/day-1-check-in.118452/) so have done three days already. This is my day four update with me trying to get to 90 days. Last night was a good night. I went to bed at the same time as my wife avoiding the trap of staying up late to look at porn. I had been by myself a lot of the day but I managed to ignore the “twitches”. When I went to bed my wife and I made love and it was good. Nothing like what I used to watch, just two people who love each other enjoying their bodies. While I know there are many who believe in “monk mode” my view is that I have to work on my relationship with my wife as well as stop watching porn. Too much of the time I would see it as a transactional situation where I would do something for my wife and she would give me sex. Really it should be that I do things for my wife to receive her love and appreciation in return. I wish that I had realised this earlier.