I stumbled upon this forum a few minutes ago, after a cycle of realizing and denying my addiction and the problems it causes. There have been times where I've committed to stopping - the porn watching, "edging" for hours until finally masturbating until release. I can't do it anymore. I am wasting my life, wasting my abilities, and not growing. I don't know where to begin with my fantasies - I have dozens. Gay, straight, trans, femdom, 'cuckold.' Would I go through with any of them? Unlikely. I've had homosexual experiences, but I am now engaged and would never do anything to harm the relationship with my fiance. I love her, I want to provide for her and protect her. I commit to things and do not follow through. I have fallen behind on many goals. I no longer read, I no longer learn new kitchen techniques. I do not spend quality time with my dogs. I get stuck on my phone. I put it away when I am with my fiance, but I want to reach for it. It's the first thing I do when I get up in the morning. I am in fairly good shape, but I have regressed lately as I skip the gym to watch porn - for hours. I can't find enjoyment in certain things, because I'll begin to think about porn and fantasies, and I cannot escape the thoughts. However, here I am. I watched porn for a couple of hours today, and when I was done masturbating, I broke down. This is the line in the sand. A simple quote from stoic philosophy: "Plant your foot." I am planting my foot. It's been about an hour since I closed the website. Hour one of day one. Any support, advice, and encouragement that you can share would be appreciated. Any tips, tricks, books.....please. I need them all.