Hey man. I can relate to you as I have been through similar journey. At the time I started on this website (in 2012 too), I thought I can overcome it in a year or two. That I would still struggle with it after 9 long years was never in my mind. This addiction has taken so much out of our life experience. Anyway, we should not lose hope and work harder towards finally overcoming it. Wish you the best bro!