Hey, everyone...I've been struggling with pornography addiction ever since I was about 12-13 years old. It all started after watching a Girls Gone Wild commercial. I got aroused and browsed on the Internet for website, and after that I was hooked. It has been a bane to my existence ever since then, but I'm addicted (I've wasted HOURS upon HOURS looking at porn). I found out about this website several months when I was in a deep funk, and decided to give it a try. I lasted about 2 months or so before I slipped back into PMO. During the period when I had stopped life had begun to get much more enjoyable for me..people seemed to like being around me more, and I felt I had gotten more muscular and I wasn't so bummed out all the time. I want to regain that clarity. I realize that the best way to help me kick this thing is to have a support group so I can at least second guess myself before I cave in to the cravings. This is gonna be hard, but I can do this! CURRENT GOALS: One week Two weeks Three weeks A Month 6 weeks
Re: Age 19 (I really want to stop) Good luck in your reboot man ! keep updating your journal to track your progress ! I stopped updating my journal because i tought it was unnecessary and it wasnt too long before i relapsed :/ just a tip hehe
Re: Age 19 (I really want to stop) Haha, thanks man! Good luck in your's too! I PMO'd not too long ago which spurred me to create this account...I had gone about a week or so w/o porn too....anyway, I'll be sure to update!
Re: Age 19 (I really want to stop) Well guys, its only been a few hours and I've already fucked up. I was on my phone with the intentions of using my YouTube app to listen to music, but as soon as I clicked on my search bar to type in a song, I saw a list of my previous searches, and Lo and behold there was a porn star actress' name among the search items. Seeing the name put me in a freaking trance, about 20 mins later I PMO'd. Damn!
Re: Age 19 (I really want to stop) Hey daimon, believe me - Being free from porn is worth it! You've just got to make up your mind about it and stay committed, then you can do it! Good luck going forward. Keep being free!
Re: Age 19 (I really want to stop) Thanks for responding, TheAndersMan! Yeah man, I intrinsically know its worth it. I just have to get that through to my brain LOL. Have you noticed any benefits from stopping PMO (this is also an open question to any who read this; if so what are they?)?
Re: Age 19 (I really want to stop) These are the benifits I noticed when I went over 40 days without pmo recently. Increased energy Morning erections Increased Libido Improved memory Less social anxiety Can look people in the eyes Increases confidence Better sleep patterns Less acne No more wrist pain This is only some of the benfits I got, trust me its well worth the effort. What have you got to lose from quitting?
Re: Age 19 (I really want to stop) Well, honestly, the biggest benefit so far for me is simply that I'm not PMO'ing. I know so many on this forum who are rebooting so that they can experience better sex... But I'm not married, so I'm not ready for a sexual relationship yet. PMO'ing violated my conscience. So now I'm not violating my conscience this way, and that means a lot to me. But as side benefits... physical benefits and mental...[list type=decimal] [*] I feel more confident interacting with people in everyday situations [*]As Aaron mentioned, eye contact is more comfortable [*]I'm sleeping better [*]Obviously I have more time! [*]I would say that I'm in better physical condition for it (slightly, but better) [*]I think I'm less tired during the day (again, slightly, no drastically) [*]However, my thoughts are much freer. I can visualize myself as a success now [/list] Like I said, the physical benefits are there, but they're secondary to me. I could not feel like an honest man with porn in my life, porn is so awful in so many different ways. It's really hard to think of everything to say here... I tried to put some of my thoughts on my journal... But if you have any specific question, you can post it or message me, and I'll do what I can to answer. Also I should point out that there is a thread on this site specifically to talk about benefits. So you might look there
Re: Age 19 (I really want to stop) Welp, I've relapsed once more....edged to some porn for about 2 hours (Yes...WTF), then after a while I kind of lost my mind and MO'd. Kinda feeling a bit discouraged right now....what do you guys do with all this extra free time you obtain from not watching porn? 'Cause I need some kind of hobby to pick up in order to distract me (watching cartoons and anime is not helping lol).
Re: Age 19 (I really want to stop) First off, don't beat yourself up too much. Everytime you relapse, you learn something. In this case you learned that relapsing, while not as bad as relapsing to porn, will quickly lead to that. If you do notice you have a lot of time, use it for something productive. Write that essay that's been on your mind for the past few weeks, or go for a run. Do something to spend that extra energy, because no PMO means you do have more energy (I for one have noticed that quite clearly). Otherwise, call a friend over or visit one, that's pretty much what I do.
Re: Age 19 (I really want to stop) Well, I relapsed to some porn a few hours ago (Just now resetting my counters, though). Aziq, you are very right. This just might be the stimulus I need to start doing things that I need to accomplish to secure my future and quit my habit of procrastination. It's time to get serious.
Re: Age 19 (I really want to stop) PMO'd just a few minutes ago....man, self control is a bitch. Damn, I'm wondering how I went 2 months (I'm starting to wonder if it really was 2 months...I stopped counting after a while) w/o porn (Fucking Meek Mill video about strippers made me relapse that time >_>). The orgasm wasn't even good. Right now, I feel guilty, and definitely frustrated with myself as a lot of things aren't going too well in my life atm. I need to re-obtain my focus, as I have definitely lost that via porn. I used to read a ton growing up, but after I found porn (and drugs...I quit that cold turkey several months ago), delving into a book and becoming immersed in it lost its (positive) grip on me as pornography shackled me in its chains. Nowadays I have to re-read lines in a book multiple times for me to comprehend, whereas before I found porn, I read a book and easily was able to understand its contents (is there some sort of correlation between pornography and reading comprehension? WTF? It could possibly just be that I was smoking a fuckton too...). I still read and write quite a bit, and it could just be that what I'm reading, as it is pretty "heavy stuff" takes more time to comprehend and I'm reaching for some explanation that isn't there, but I still feel that porn may be contributing a negative hand. I really need to stop PMO; this addiction is worse than a weed addiction by a longshot. The energy drain is terrible, and it contributes to my general procrastination habits. It's just so hard to stop. It's like the "weed burnout". After a while you don't even really feel as high anymore, you're doing it just to "maintain". Your social skills decline if you isolate yourself, and since excessive porn use contributes to isolation, you're killing your happiness. I'm killing my happiness by keeping up with this habit. *sigh* It's time to grow up. I really need to grow up, and man up.
Re: Age 19 (I really want to stop) Welp, soon it'll be a full 24 hours since I last PMO'd. And...today wasn't so bad, I had a few porn thoughts flash in my mind quite a bit, but it wasn't that big of a deal since I distracted myself by spending time with my younger siblings. Earlier, throughout the day I felt a bit bored, but nothing too serious. However, at the moment I feel slightly depressed. One of my friends who I haven't seen in about 6 years is supposed to drop by the house tomorrow to visit, but I feel so "bland" at the moment -- I just hope tomorrow is a better day. I'm thinking that I might exercise a bit to wake myself up...
Re: Age 19 (I really want to stop) 2 days in 2 more hours! ;D I had a few porn-centered thoughts come to me periodically, but each time they'd pop up, I'd try to refocus on something else. Today to distract myself, I actually stopped procrastinating and helped to clean up my parent's pad. After that, I did an hour of hardcore plyometric exercise (I am probably going to be sore as hell in the morning). Man, it was freakin' killer! I was terribly exhausted after the workout session! As it turns out, my friend didn't come over today, but it's all good as I actually got a few things I wanted to do accomplished. I plan on exercising again tomorrow...might do a little bit of Kenpo to work on my reflexes.
Re: Age 19 (I really want to stop) Life's been pretty good the past few days. I've kept myself preoccupied with the free time I've accrued by doing other things such as reading, watching anime, and chilling with some friends. It's been a few days since I've last been on here... So far, everything's been going well. Some porn-related thoughts pop up from time to time, but I don't act on them. Now, I remember somethings from my previous attempt at a reboot (which is not chronicled on this site)...I once surfed a website (cannot recall the name), but it basically said in layman's terms that it is best not to look at porn at all as the mind shifts between a funnel of sorts from: Higher Order Thought, and Negative Thinking (I cannot remember what the correct terms are for the life of me so...these will have to do). Porn narrows focus which has a direct impact on higher order thinking by activating a more primitive function of the brain "funneling" down to negative thinking which diminishes focus and self esteem. I really wish I could remember the name of the website, as there was definitely more to the theory than I am stating at the moment. Perhaps I will remember as I continue abstaining from porn.
Re: Going to quit porn forever (Age 19) Can't freaking believe that I've lasted for over a week now! It's been tough. I've been thinking of employing the strategy I've seen others talk about on this website: Marking one's progress by setting small goals for oneself as the time goes on. One week Two weeks Three weeks A Month At the current moment, I'm feeling quite lethargic in general, and I've had quite a few urges flash through my mind today but I'm definitely trying to ignore them as I move forward in my life. It is said that to truly understand the high one must traverse through the low, so for now I shall keep on moving through these murky waters and onward to victory.
Re: Going to quit porn forever (Age 19) Also...I'm starting to feel that when I did my initial reboot I did not last 2 months, but perhaps lasted a month and a half. During that time was when I began to experience the positive effects of the reboot, I believe. By that I mean having a better sleeping pattern, and being more upbeat in general. I remember that I experienced what may have been either the first or second wet dream ever in my life. During that dream, I actually became cognizant of the fact that I was in a dream and literally felt that I was going to orgasm, however...I consciously told myself, "No." Then went back to sleep.
Re: Going to quit porn forever (Age 19) Good luck bro. DO NOT RELAPSE. Last time i survived 50 day's without PMO. I felt like a new person. Full Libido. Full Concentration. Better study results. More confidence. Can make eye contact. And the list goes on. Stay strong. The first two days are the hardest. Avoid all bikini girls/porn/horny videos or any dirty thoughts.
Re: Going to quit porn forever (Age 19) Thanks, TheUknown. Good luck to you as well! The dirty thoughts are going to be a bitch to restrain but we have to gain better control of them if we wish to be successful in this reboot.
Re: Going to quit porn forever (Age 19) Almost had a freakin' relapse just now! Woah, ahaha! It came out of nowhere. Spent 2 mins just browsing some pics of some girl wearing extremely form fitting clothing. Had to smack myself in the head to exit the window and do something else (like post here) or my mind would want to start seeing the "real thing" (porn, in this case).
