Today is day 4 since the catastrophically embarrassing night (ED, had two girls in my bed and still couldn't get hard) that finally showed me how much I need to reboot. No brain fog or anything like that yet, I've actually been able to focus much, much better with schoolwork. I feel like I'm finally OUT of a brain fog. I am lifting HEAVY 3 days/week, which helps a lot to control the urges, but I can't wait until I go home for break in ~1 month when I can start working out 5-6 days a week instead, which will be even better. Once I make it to mid-to-late January it should be much easier from then onward, since I'll be studying abroad. I don't want to get too ahead of myself, but hopefully my ED will me somewhat gone by then. It shouldn't be too hard to rewire with beautiful European women everywhere. I've always been pretty damn good at pushing myself through pain, so now that I've realized this problem and I have a goal in mind with rebooting, I'm ready to push myself and get over this addiction.
Day 7: Woke up with not full-on morning wood, but the closest thing I've had to it in a very long time. It was a measly half-boner, BUT it was achieved completely mentally, with no artificial stimulation from porn. Definitely a step in the right direction considering it's only been a week. This first week was actually pretty easy. I'm well aware that it's gonna get a lot more difficult but I say bring on the challenge.
Whew. Day 8 and the urge is getting stronger you guys. This is a good thing though. My brain is trying to get me to cave but I know better than to listen.
Day 18. I guess I must be flatlining. Last week I had finally started waking up with morning wood again and had an increased libido. Now it's pretty much gone and I'm waking up with no morning wood. It's all good though, I've read enough on here to know that it's just part of the process.
