Hi guys. Its been a while since I posted here. I have had some improvements, haven't looked at any P for a while now (over two weeks I think but Ive stopped counting). I still have been going through periods of no MO and MOing. When I do without MO I really notice a change in my demeanor throughout the day. I have finally made some progress with girls. Got to cuddle with one girl for a bit, then got to make out with another finally. I can say when I cuddled with this redhead girl, I felt amazing. After we left and I went home, I was like feeling 'high' in my car for a bit. Like I was under the influence of some powerful opiate (I know the feeling as I have done drugs before, thankfully sober now). Then I met with another girl the next night, and we hung out and made out for a bit. That last weekend was by far a huge improvement for me. And, the whole thing is I didn't MO that entire week before that happened. I see a strange relation. I did MO shortly after that weekend as a sort of 'reward' for my hard work. However now I am faltering again in my dealings with women. I was gonna hang out with a girl today, but my MOing is making me feel like I don't want to now. Lately too I have been feeling pretty isolated. I have been working so hard on this girl thing lately, and I have worn out some of my friends with my constant talk about it. So I have stopped talking about it to them as much. It's something I really want to change, so I am passionately devoted to it. However, its like I cannot talk about it. Figure posting here would be a good place to vent. I feel like I have to change so much about me just to get anywhere with a girl. That I have to learn all these seduction things before I can make any more progress with a girl. That I have to completely be MO free before I can even get with a girl. It's messed up in my eyes. I feel too that I cannot get help with this because all other guys are out there for themselves, as its all a quest to spread our genes. Attractiveness all relates back to Darwin's ideas. I want to meet a girl and eventually have kids. I need that affection and sex because of the stress relief it has been proven to give. But, it looks like to me I am on my own here completely. tl;dr: PMO free for a bit, struggling with MO, making progress with girls, feeling isolated, have to stand on my own now. I might send out a few PM's, but feel free if you want to PM me about both PMO and meeting women. I have made some progress so id be willing to talk about it a bit. later guys.