so I have been on 9 months hard mode rebooting from severe pied nothing could arouse me I had ZERO urges when I quit porn straight into a deep flatline . But last night my cravings just shot through the roof and I kept getting erections with minimal thought ,tiny sensation I wasn't consciously trying to masturbate or get erections .about 70-80 percent erection bear in mind my dick has been dead the whole time for 9 months and I have bad hard flaccid . This went on for about 9 hours the tension was to much I couldn't think straight so I ejaculated without touching my dick by squeezing my Kegels rapidly for a few seconds because they were involuntry contracting anyway I was on edge of orgasm so I just let it happen . I tried to keep the fantasy minimal or very vanilla or not at all but I couldn't stop and some grimy thoughts got in unfortunately . The thoughts were aboout my lifelong fetish I was trying to subdue by reboot but even vanilla things were driving me crazy which hasnt happened in years. But I have only ever been able to ejaculate with EXTREME porn after edging sessions and could never masturbate to fantasy EVER and I felt no need to look at porn at all and I had a good routine to not relapse and it worked for 9 months . so I have very mixed feelings about this but I felt good tbh my stress went down but I feel bad now as I relapsed and ruined my long streak Has this happened to anyone what should my next step be I was thinking wait a few more months of hardmode then try sex ?