This is a message primarily for people I've messaged with in that past. I have dug very deep into research about compulsive masturbation, and I'm pretty convinced finally, that this is the source of my problem. I have a memory of having the flu with a fever when I was 15, and I actually masturbated to alleviate the pain of having the flu. That's a huge clue right there that something was wrong very early on. Anyways, I've spent most of my life searching for answers on what the hell is wrong with me, and I believe I'm getting there.