Committing to a Porn Free Life. I CAN do this! Persistence is Everything.

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by R3balance, Oct 26, 2012.

  1. VeniVidiVici

    VeniVidiVici New Member

    Re: Too many failed Attempts.. Striving to Put this Shit in My Rearview!

    One thing that helps me a lot to get back to my senses is just going out to a park or something and read a book. (Or if it's too cold a cafe or coffee shop or something.) That does make me melancholic a lot of the times, but it kind of feels like stopping time for a second, which can be really nice.

    On the thing with your (ex-)gf, I guess ending it would be a relief for you, since most of your problems seem to be related to the relationship with her.
     
  2. R3balance

    R3balance Member

    Re: Too many failed Attempts.. Striving to Put this Shit in My Rearview!

    Where I live it rains almost everyday, and i have a hard time reading now a days, car drives use to be my way to relax but with gas prices now its no longer relaxing! Yea I need to find that for myself, whatever it may be..

    Sex is the worst when you dont have a good erection.. my gf really wanted to have sex and I got kinda hard,,, hard enough to penetrate but thats it, I could barely feel anything cause my dick wasnt hard or filling her out, made me feel shitty tbh
    just makes me feel shtty sex isnt suppose to be like that, makes me feel likemy dick is small too but even if my dick was huge if its not hard its not hard..

    just doing exams right now, obviously didnt break up with my gf i never do, so ignore my last post about that


    not happy with how I have grown past 3 years, I need to start working on my self, my motivation things i can control and improve myself
     
  3. R3balance

    R3balance Member

    Re: Too many failed Attempts.. Striving to Put this Shit in My Rearview!

    http://ca.askmen.com/entertainment/austin/emasculation.html

    article aimed at us :mad:

    clearly this guy doesnt get what we are going through
     
  4. VeniVidiVici

    VeniVidiVici New Member

    Re: Too many failed Attempts.. Striving to Put this Shit in My Rearview!

    Feel you man, have had the same shitty sex too often. It just sucks..
     
  5. R3balance

    R3balance Member

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    urges have been through the roof, i just keep that 10 min distraction urges will disappear in mind, and it helps, try not to think abou p even though my urges are tempting me like crazy. working on a paper but if i even come close to giving in my comps going off and im going for a walk even if its raining! I aint caving no more, gotta be strong!
     
  6. R3balance

    R3balance Member

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    had a strange day, feel like im flatlining, dead dick, but my P urges were MASSSSSIVE today to the point where my hips were thrusting, seriously and i felt like a drug addict, got out of the house tho and played tennis with 3 bros, def saved me, gf started a fight, before my urges started im sure being upset is was built the urges, i dont care about her bs anymore i cant deal with it anymore, i dont get why im putting myself through all this with her, i finally just broke up with her, and ive gotta stick to my guns on it this time i really do.

    Im whats most important and, if what she sas is true than this is good for her to, I hope i wont be writing in two days were back together or something saying oh everythings gonna be different this time cause its not i just cant do it, its driving me insane, problem and fight after fight drains my money, is miserable has made me somewhat depressed and anxious its ridiculous i cant do it anymore. I gotta stick to my guns on this for real


    as for my reboot it will be hard to go through alone, but that might be easier than what i have been going through with her latley
     
  7. R3balance

    R3balance Member

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    Feeling really good, finished my last paper of the year, going to play tennis and work today.

    Gonna stay positive and focus on being happy, P doesnt exist as well!
     
  8. R3balance

    R3balance Member

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    home from work now, Im gonna watch game of thrones and than hit the hay!

    Maybe start going back to the gym tom?!!?! :eek: ::)
     
  9. VeniVidiVici

    VeniVidiVici New Member

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    Nice man, keep the positive flow going and the rest will follow.
     
  10. R3balance

    R3balance Member

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    lol I mod, chaser mod, than chaser PMOd jesus christ
    this is gettin gridiculous, last few days I was so positive thought this was working and what not, than I relaps pfft

    Day 1 here I go lol brutal
     
  11. R3balance

    R3balance Member

    Re: Too many failed Attempts.. Striving to Put this Shit in My Rearview!

    Its pretty upsetting, the only negative thing in my life is my sex life, Ive got so much going on for me, Im very comfortable with women and the only thing that holds me back is my sex problems, its affecting my overal confidence now as I feel like each time im failing my self control is worsening, 30 days NO PMO and 8 days no MO , and a Relapse , Thats unacceptable, I need to start taking this a lot more seriously,,,

    I gave into that only once, one last time inner head addiction bullshit!!

    It just so lame, girls I wold love to date I cant because of my problem, even my ex gf things still wouldnt have worked with her but they woulda been a lot better and I would feel a lot beter about myself.
     
  12. R3balance

    R3balance Member

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    So after I had already relapsed,, I plugged in my old comp, from highschool,,

    Spent hours on it looking at old memories old pics lots and lots of olg things, was a trip on memory lane, kinda cool, and I wish there was more!

    Of course there was my old P stash,,, before porntubes, i still did dls and than torrents, the folder on my computer was called no good wil come from this and the sub folder was this either with my favorite videos in it,,,,,

    So of course I yanked off a couple times to it, watched every vid just for a second ,,,,,,

    and i think im sadder than i am, I cant believe this problem i have is all because of all this porn, even when i was young i knew it wasnt good for me look at what i named the folder! I remember id delte it all say im never looking again and than re download it back even bigger and better than before,

    I need to stop accepting bs and start making changes this is bullshit, do i want to waste my youth when i should be humping hunnies or miss out on meeting me wife or next gf cause i have zero sexual ability to perofrm at a level to maintain a relationship !!!


    Im gonna start looking up addiction programs, because I am clearly an addict now, it comes so naturally like eating, or junk food, I am o thappy with myself, but im not down, need to fix this crap
     
  13. R3balance

    R3balance Member

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    I printed out the 100 benefits to no PMO its hanging above my computer now, my iphone has zero capability of looking up P as well, tomo I am going to gather myself and prioritize

    NO PMO - Healthy sex life -> Happiness = My number 1 Goal

    School = My number 2 Goal

    Make a Diet and a Gym Plan = My number 3 goal

    I want to make a very scheduled like like for the next 6 weeks, that will get me half way through a reboot than I will do it again, I am done Oing, I hope my dick enjoyed that abuse today because its not getting touched, I am joining the NO MO You will Die Church.

    I want the mentality of if I MO I will die for real, like a smoker whos forced to quit by a lung problem or something

    Too many years have gone by now, and all this struggling with quitting has been making things worse mentally, plus the fact I feel like this abstinence mixed with binging is shrinking my dick, I feel like its getting smaller flaccid and erections its crazy wiith p or without,

    Might just be mental from being down on my failure so far.

    This has to be taken seriously, I need to do this, im not just going to break the 30 day barrier I am gonna blast it, I am done fucking around, its wierd now after breaking up with my gf the thought of her being able to get fucked by some other dude is motivating me to do this as well, pisses me off, but us breaking up is for the best for both of us.

    Love out to all those who have relapsed today, like myself, and lets pick our selves up and step up, focus, stop giving in, be stronger, and believe in our selves and not accept failure or anything less than success! Those going strong and anyone doing well my respect! Keep it going!
     
  14. VeniVidiVici

    VeniVidiVici New Member

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    Best of luck man! Hope my response to your message will help you in some way!!
     
  15. sully19

    sully19 Sunshine and coconut milk

    Re: Too many failed Attempts.. Striving to Put this Shit in My Rearview!

    Hey man, I've been reading your posts and I think that you're making a good move by dropping the MO from your lifestyle. I used to jack off to porn about 3 days before I knew that I was going to have sex with my girlfriend in high school, with the impression that it would make me last longer. But slowly my performance level began to decrease and it got to the point where I couldn't last very long whether I jerked it or not. I don't MO now because it always seems to lead to P in some way or another. Jerking off one time led to my last relapse and ruined my streak.

    You and VVV were talking about whether or not you believe the myth that jerking off before sex stops PE. I used to believe it but now I don't. The only reason that it "stops" PE is because it makes you less sensitive and kind of makes you care less about the sex so your brain doesn't turn it into such a big deal. I went on a nice 36 day streak of no P or M before my last relapse and I had sex with a girl a couple of times during that streak. Not O'ing from anything but sex really made it hard to keep from coming, and I didn't last incredibly long (but it wasn't too short either). It felt very good though. After we did it, we laid in bed and then we would start fooling around again, and all of the sudden I got another erection and we had sex a second time, and the second time lasted way longer! (this isn't a "bro story" I promise) It totally changed my perception of sex and ever since then I've just been trying to focus on no porn, no masturbation, because the first most important thing we can gain from the reboot is getting it up, and being sensitive down there. Then we can ENJOY sex, and if we enjoy it enough, our body will figure it out and push us to have more and more of it, which is totally fine with me.
     
  16. R3balance

    R3balance Member

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    Thanks sully19, Yea MO I am going to be steering clear from, I dont care about PE anymore I just dont want to have ED at all, or small weak erections its becoming terrible,,, seriously

    2 days ago a girl I met started to rub me while driving, and I was nervous cause we have never hooked up before, I reacted very well, than she stopped, than 30 minutes later I parled somewhere beause she was rubbing me again i was responding great but I had to pee really bad so after awhile my sensitivity went down and it was going to be realy hard for me to come, and i was really focusing on not losing my erection, lol joggers came by and almost saw me and her, parked in a really bad spot, so pulled my pants up and we went off, and I had to go to work but i didnt want blueballs and she didnt want me to not finish an I didnt have time to go pee, so we pulled over by her apartment and she milked me like a cow, my erection was crappy this time, maybe because it was the third time in a short period of time and i had to pee was stressed about time and uncomftorable cause i thought another person was gonna come by like before? either way she finished me even though i wasnt hard enough for penetration, and she wants to come over next week and suck my wee wee all day her exact text lmao

    doing well with no p, no mo, only been 6 days though but i willbe steering clear for sure.

    Had a great homework day yesterday and am about to stat again today, VVV your message helped me a lot actually, thanks man!
     
  17. VeniVidiVici

    VeniVidiVici New Member

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    No worries, anytime!
     
  18. R3balance

    R3balance Member

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    Feeling okay, feeling down about my erections though
    Posted this dont want to dble post or type twice, if ur curious its there, just been trippin out about it
    http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/index.php?topic=9259.0

    Doing well avoiding P, I dont ever want to MO to it again EVER, I want to sue the P industry I wish it was possible :'(

    Saw the movie Pain and Gain, was meh, had some laughs, made me think i need to start living a healthy life for my own good and sanity, and there was some sex and nudity, some really sexy ladys, wish i didnt see it , didnt lead to any cravings or fantasies afterwards, but i hate seeing that and feeling like I have to hide from it as well
     
  19. R3balance

    R3balance Member

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    Having some big P urges, using the Red X thingy and thats helping, have the benefits up too, gonna start working on my final term project, sucks i have to be doing internet research its rather tempting, click click, uh oh, you know.

    Addiction battles are beginning now, prolly doesnt help the orgasms i have had with that girl, but no moing no P gonna stick to this i wont die.

    Just typing on here to do the whole 10 minute distraction thing, and as i read a few entires on here and am typing my urges are dying down,

    had a morning erection today, wasnt my biggest but was a bit stronger and bigger than the last few weeks whenever I have had an erection.

    so i guess thats a positive, was tempting to touch it.

    Well here I goooo Ill check in again later
     
  20. Fry

    Fry Guest

    Re: Too many failed Attempts.. Striving to Put this Shit in My Rearview!

    oh yeah man +1 P should be banned on the whole globe!! The P industry are destroying lifes with their drugs and I'm quite sure they KNOW how dangerous P is to human brains; they are not stupid!
     

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