Coming and reborn

Discussion in 'Ages 40+' started by Sebs, Jul 5, 2021.

  1. Sebs

    Sebs Member

    Hi to everyone...im interested to have friends to talk about new masculinity...im adicted and i want to come out from this...i think this forum can be usefull to me if other men can talk about their experiences...im married have kids but im adict to gay porn...i fantasy that im with other men and dont know why...
     
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  2. Saville

    Saville Well-Known Member

    This is quite common among straight men. Porn has nothing to do with sexuality, it's all about getting a dopamine rush. Once you're off of porn you will feel your sexuality in a new and natural way. We can't know if we're gay or straight, into bondage and/or donkeys, until we separate our neurons from the pixels. Hope your journey here brings forth good things. Welcome!
     
  3. Sebs

    Sebs Member

    Thanks brother, i apreciate your words because im alone in this...no one knows it. So thanks for the friendship!
     
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  4. Sebs

    Sebs Member

    So here i am in a new day, i wish every one of you can do the best efort to keep on!!! We can do it together...im better thanks to brothers who wrote me...so move on!
     
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  5. 200DaysMission

    200DaysMission Active Member

    Hi Sebs, is this your main journal?

    I'll tag along for the ride with you too, am on here most days.
    You've got this!

    How's the first five days been - easier/harder than you expected?
     
  6. Sebs

    Sebs Member

    Hi!! How u doing...its not easy but i keep on...want to touch muself every morning but im focus in this group...i feel that i have partners to help and get supoort, so thank you for the message...you can count with me too...if you wanna talk here i am ok?
     
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  7. Sebs

    Sebs Member

    Hi to all, its a new day...im lookinf for a friend to do this acountability thing, having a partner to talk each other come out from this PM...you can write ok? I chat with a man today and it feels good when you can say your feelings. Have a good day!
     
  8. Sebs

    Sebs Member

    Hi everyone...today very tuff...i spoke with a men from spain, he show me his parts...but didnt do anything...didnt PMO, but almost fall in the cave ...this thing is very dificoult...so, i think im gonna fall any moment...i put myself in danger just for a little of dopamine...good nite bros, hope tomorrow better day..
     
  9. Deleted User

    Deleted User Guest

    Hi Sebs.

    I see you set up your counter, nearly a week. Way to go. Without Porn, Masturbation, but Orgasms are fine. I suppose you keep having sex with your wife?

    You fantasizing about being with other men and not knowing why. It's either the porn side of it fucking up your brain or maybe you are discovering a new part of your sexuality?

    If you met this men from spain online, maybe time to blacklist the kind of sites you are visiting or to do something else why feeling this urge and not going on the phone/computer etc ... ;)

    Keep on fighting!
     
  10. Sebs

    Sebs Member

    Hi brother, las night make love with my wife, and was good but its a problem tur on yet...i enjoy it but i dont know why didnt feel too hot...i think i like men but i cant asume this because its to late...i have a family...
    I have instaled Skype yesterday again and fall in this sexting with this man...so today is a new day...thanks, i keep on fight!!
     
  11. Sebs

    Sebs Member

    Like i say, its a new day...hope work a lot in my desk and do not PM...i feel sun is shining, last night make love with my wife and it qas difficoult at first, but then i just relax...my mind wanted to imagine being with a guy, but love xan do more, so y keep on and feels good...so have a nice day to all and thanks for the support, count on me ok?
     
  12. 200DaysMission

    200DaysMission Active Member

    I'm glad you're doing well!

    It's great that you're still able to have fulfilling sex with your wife, even if it takes a bit of time.

    Keep on trying to shut out those urges to sext.
    Even if it's not graphic, it's probably hitting all those same areas as explicit porn would.
    You'd definitely do better off without them, even though that'll be harder!
     
  13. Sebs

    Sebs Member

    Yes, its hard but not imposible, so i took an hour to this saa.org to fi d a meeting and talk with people and heal...im staying with you guys! Good nite
     
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  14. Sebs

    Sebs Member

    Im here and happy beecause you guys are my company...i went to a meeting by zoom and met more people...iys very hepfull dividing two diferent things, that it doesnt matter if its or not gay porn, the problem is always porn, so i m strong...i did sing in a cult, eucharisty and think thay god loves me ans give me his love and suport...so stay shrong all of u, wmbrases all
     
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  15. 200DaysMission

    200DaysMission Active Member

    Glad you're feeling good mate :)
     
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  17. Sebs

    Sebs Member

    Its morning here, good day to all!!!
    Enjoy life go outside, dance, sing, pray and stay strong!!! Lets do it together
     
  18. Sebs

    Sebs Member

    Today i chat with a man and feel hard for a moment...but told him im on recovery, he wanted to make a videocall to MO, nut i stay cool, told him that im triying to come out of this adiction to sex and porn...and he undestood...i realise that talking with him turn me on because he wanted me, and of course when someone desires you, its allways good...but i stay strong, we didnt do anything in skpe...its hard not falling in this behaviors but at least didnt PMO
     
  19. 200DaysMission

    200DaysMission Active Member

    Hi Sebs,

    Well done for not letting things escalate, and for being so direct with him too.
    I don't think situations like this are too damaging, so long as each time you manage to step away at an earlier point. If you keep things moving in the right direction, it'll get harder and harder to fail.

    But either way, it's really impressive that you avoided the video call, so proud of you! Congrats.
     
  20. Sebs

    Sebs Member

    Thanks brother...was very hard, but i think like to play danger...so i can burn snd dont wwant to....hope not going to far. But yes, i didnt make that video call...today in the morning my p. Was hard...so wanted to touch my self...did it a little but then went out of my bed and have brackfast....i think today im horny...so have to battle. Bye!!!!
     

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