CHICAGO'S JOURNAL [Day: 1 ; Should have known better]

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  1. Chicago

    Chicago New Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 44]

    Day 46 Update

    Okay, so in my last update I said that I was getting back some "mental libido." To dive deeper into that, I can say that lately whenever I see a good looking woman, I want to fuck her brains out. I can't even keep my head on straight. All I can think about is sex. I would say that this is a great thing, but the problem is.. my dick isn't feeling the same way. i feel nothing down there while my mind is going crazy. In fact, the only time my dick reacts is when I see an attractive girl in a movie or a show. Especially when they're wearing very little.

    That's kind of annoying... but gotta push through it. I just hope that my dick starts responding soon.
     
  2. livefreeordiehard

    livefreeordiehard New Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 44]

    Lol, my mind is not that full of fuck, but I know what you mean.

    Today I caught myself looking at a nice ass of a woman that was in front of me in the supermarket, for minutes. But maaan, that was a really nice ass.

    My dick on the other hand had no opinion on this. ;D
     
  3. grzeg12

    grzeg12 New Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 46]

    yea..similar feeling...
    I like to watch woman, but my dick continually flatline, but sometimes my dick is a bit bigger than earlier and if I use my keggel muscles I can feel that I can can a little move him. But generally we must be patient I think that after 90 days we see some improvements.
     
  4. baywalker

    baywalker Active Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 46]

    For real life stimuli (just like looking at a girls ass, etc.) I am thinking of also cutting back on that to help speed up the process but its kind of risky since that seems to be the only stimuli I get sexually ever. What do you guys think?

    P.s. Chicago, I also think about stuff like that when I see a really attractive girl, but something makes me think its wrong for some reason...
     
  5. rcfergie5

    rcfergie5 Guest

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 44]

    it's a great thing you like to look at real girls. I do too! But ya gotta make sure that's a person you're looking at, and not an object, so you won't appear rude lol anyway, keep goin man, you'll get out of the flatline ASAP.
     
  6. R3balance

    R3balance Active Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 46]

    I feel ya, Im almost a week in and my mentall libido is feeling crazy when close and alone with a girl holyyyyyy, but downstairs no buddy is home so I feel you, this is a long road to recovery, its random though mine starts getting aroused at very random very random times, think hes confused and saying what the hell man what the hell! you forgetting about me! lol

    Your puttin in work for real though, and your motivating me huge, I am thinking if you can do it, I can do it, so I will get to your stage soon! and you will be rebooted, with a dick thats responding so soon, just keep doing what your doing its working!
     
  7. grzeg12

    grzeg12 New Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 46]

    Hi friends, lastly I think about check myself, because I think that maybe we too much thinking about how we were stupid and watch porn, we feel guil, no happy, and it can also be reason for flatline. What do you think about it?
     
  8. jimmycliff

    jimmycliff Guest

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 46]

    Hey CONGRATS on your 50 days!!! Keep it up!

    I challenged you on that topic..
    http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/index.php?topic=4616.60

    if you are willing to participate ;D
     
  9. Chicago

    Chicago New Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 46]

    @LiveFreeDieHard – Yeah, not having the physical component to it sucks. But it does feel great getting horny by just looking at REAL women in 3D hahaha.

    @Grzeg12- I think flatline can partially be due to feeling guilty and not happy. I mean, ED and no libido are symptoms of depression and stress. If you aren’t happy, especially during a reboot, being in flat line is no surprise.

    @Baywalker- I think it’s perfectly fine and healthy to check out girls in real life and feel horny by it. I just think it’s important for you not to sit there and visualize having sex with them. That’s too close to porn.

    @Rcfergie5- I definitely don’t see them as objects hahaha. It was just my horny brain :D I hope to get out of flat line asap, but I feel that my MO session last night may have set me a back a LITTLE.

    @R3Balance- Thanks a lot man! I just really wish I hadn’t MO’d last night. I know it was a doctor’s order… but I didn’t have to do it. I hope I didn’t set myself back too much. I hear stories like Gabe’s and how orgasms set him back a few months… I just hope that doesn’t happen to me.

    @Jimmycliff- Hey, thanks for the support and challenge request! Unfortunately, I MO’d last night. So I can’t take part in your challenge. I really wish I would have. I know I could have done it. Sorry, bud.
     
  10. Chicago

    Chicago New Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 46]

    Day 50 Update

    As you guys can see in my counter, I MO’d last night. RIGHT after I hit 50 days. I’ll quickly tell you the story of how and why it happened.

    On day 47, I started feeling an achy pain in my balls and pelvic area. It started becoming painful to take a piss. I went to the doctor on day 49 and told him my symptoms and also mentioned that I have not masturbated in 50 days. He said that he really thinks that may be the cause of my pain and to masturbate to see if it works. I told him I would, but my plan was to just go home and deal with the pain. The pain gradually worsened as the day went on and when I went for a run, I had to stop after a couple of minutes because of the bad pain in my balls. I said, “fuck it” and decided to MO to see if it would get rid of the pain.

    I waited for 3 hours until I hit 50 days and I started. I was able to get 100% hard after 2 minutes of light stroking with no fantasy. I was masturbating to sensation alone. When I jizzed. Holy shit. That was the most pleasurable feeling orgasm I have had in YEARS. The feeling right before I orgasmd was intense too. It felt like I was edging, but I wasn’t. It felt so good that it actually kind of hurt.

    On the plus side, I have no chaser effects. I haven’t had an urge to PMO since then. I actually felt very satisfied after I was done. Also, my dick has never been bigger. I looked down at it before I was about to blow my load and my dick looked full as hell. That was kind of shocking. Another plus side is that I noticed a lot of sensitivity come back. Let’s say that you’re sensitivity is at 100% before you ever started masturbating. Mine was down at about 50% before I started my reboot. I would say that last night, my sensitivity was at about 85-90%. It felt great.

    On the downside, I think I set myself back. Some claim that MO during reboot doesn’t set you back at all, but I’ve seen far too many people MO during reboot and have the reboot go on for over 6 months. Maybe that’s because they were continuously Moing. Idk. But hopefully this doesn’t stall my progress too much. I did make my new goal 120 days though instead of 100. Also, the pain barely went away. I would say that on a scale of 1-10, the pain was at a 7 before I MO’d. Afterwards, it has been at a 4.

    I really regret MO’ing. I know I would have made it 100 straight days. I’m really pissed that I may have set back my progress, even if it’s only a little bit.
     
  11. jimmycliff

    jimmycliff Guest

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 50 of no PMO]

    Nevermind the relapse - it's nothing - just keep going like NOTHING happened....

    Good luck!! You can do it!
     
  12. Chicago

    Chicago New Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 50 of no PMO]

    Thanks man! Although I wouldn't consider it a relapse since porn or fantasy wasn't involved.
     
  13. grzeg12

    grzeg12 New Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 50 of no PMO]

    nothing happened bro ! 1 masturbation during 50 days is not the end of world :)
    Just keep with it, make double 50 :) and you gain 99 days without masturbation :)

    And what is interesting when I gain 45 days without PMO I have desire to masturbate , maybe go to half of journey make us more excited and it is reason to masturbate :)
     
  14. AChap

    AChap New Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 50 of no PMO]

    Congrats on making it to fifty days, and at least when you did MO it wasn't to porn. If you're going to do it, that's definitely the best way!

    Keep at it.
     
  15. rcfergie5

    rcfergie5 Guest

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 50 of no PMO]

    Nothing wrong with an occasional MO, buddy. 50 days is pretty good man! Just keep it going!
     
  16. King

    King Never give up.

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 46]

    I feel you on that one bro - yesterday I was having the worst day of my prostate troubles and I kept getting thoughts like "Just MO, King, clean the pipes down there. Reset your prostate and it will make it all better!" Especially since you went to a doc and he suggested it too - hard to resist when pain makes you unable to concentrate on anything else.

    Next time though, think about the fact that masturbation is what got you that pain in the first place. Resist it and next day you will feel better. No one ever died from not masturbating, no matter how hard the pain is! There's stuff you can take too even without antibiotics - cranberry juice & cranberry pills for urinary pain; zinc and saw palmetto for prostate. Better diet - "If a man made it - don't eat it".

    Anyway, I know you will put this behind you and go right back into the reboot and we will see the 100 days of no MO light up on your counter in no time. You got this shit ! Best of luck !
     
  17. grzeg12

    grzeg12 New Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 50 of no PMO]

    But if you have any doubt that you are able to successful penetration, - you now sure that you can :)
    And think about future - if you continue reboot you are will see more improvements.
    And lastly, your balls and you prostate works good- so problem is in brain. Brain is plastic, so you only must wait when brain heals.Addiction change you brain, but it is revesible ( I hope) :)
     
  18. MPT Beauregard

    MPT Beauregard Had we but world enough, and time...

    Re: CHICAGO'S JOURNAL [Day 51 of no PMO :: MO- 1 Time]

    Dude,

    Congratulations. You're doing ridiculously well, despite that MO. Look at it this way - now you are actually feeling "something" from down there, as opposed to nothing at all! It isn't what you were expecting at this stage - pain is never welcome, but look at it this way: everything is healing all the time. Just the same way your hair grows back after a haircut, or your fingernails. Everything's healing all the time. And you've had only one MO in 60 days. That's incredible.

    Keep going, man. I'm anxious to see how this plays out for you.

    (And I hope to be where you are currently as soon as I can).
     
  19. Hockey711

    Hockey711 Member

    Re: CHICAGO'S JOURNAL [Day 51 of no PMO :: MO- 1 Time]

    You still holding up there mate?
     
  20. Chicago

    Chicago New Member

    Re: CHICAGO'S JOURNAL [SUCCESS]

    SUCCESS

    Sorry for not responding to those that posted in my journal earlier. I've been busy with finals. I'll make sure to respond to you guys in your journals over the next few days.

    Anyway, my success story is posted here:

    http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/index.php?topic=5082.0

    I got to where I wanted to get... so I might not be spending much time around here anymore. I will check up on some of you guys and show some support... and if anything happens with me regarding this reboot, I'll post it in here.

    Thanks for the support guys! I really appreciated all of it.
     

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