CHICAGO'S JOURNAL [Day: 1 ; Should have known better]

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  1. Chicago

    Chicago New Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 38]

    Day 38 Update

    Well, I had my second wet dream last night! It was so weird because I saw it coming. 2 nights ago, I woke up right before I felt like I was going to cum because of my alarm clock. So I had a feeling that I was going to get one soon. And it just happened to be last night hahaha. I'm not worried about any chaser effects because I didn't have any last time.

    I feel like my dick is much more alive during the night than the day. I've been getting morning wood again over the last 3 days and I feel like my libido is higher once I wake up. But by the time I get out of bed and start doing stuff, my libido goes down and I'm back to flat lining. It sucks.

    I also forgot to mention earlier in my journal that I started taking these supplements:

    Daily Multivitamin
    Vitamin D
    Omega-3 Fish Oil
    CoQ10
    Zinc

    I've read that Vitamin D, Fish Oil and CoQ10 are good for erection health. CoQ10 is also good for extra energy. Zinc helps lower the levels of estrogen levels in your body which in turn helps testosterone growth... which is again, good for our bodies and our dicks haha.

    I don't know if it'll work, but I'm giving them a shot.
     
  2. JUFC

    JUFC New Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 38]

    Good to see you're still at it mate. Just wondering if you think the supplements are doing much for you? How much of each are you taking a day/when?
     
  3. Chicago

    Chicago New Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 38]

    At this point, it's hard to tell if the benefits I'm noticing are just the natural process of the reboot, or if they're because of these supplements. I think it's both though. I started taking them around day 21. Since then, I had 2 wet dreams and I've gotten morning/night wood more frequently. I also feel like I have more energy. Scratch that.. I DO have more energy.

    One supplement that I'm not taking but plan to take is L-arginine. I've read a lot about it and some guys on here take it, too. It helps open up your blood vessels and it improves blood blow through your body. This has helped some guys with their ED. I don't plan on taking it just yet. I still want my brain/dick to heal before I take anything to help my ED.

    I take 300 mg of CoQ10 a day, 1 multi-vitamin a day, 2000 I.U's extra of Vitamin D, 100 mg of fish oil and I take 10-15 mg of Zinc every other day because it seems to upset my stomach.
     
  4. Chicago

    Chicago New Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 40]

    Day 40 Update

    I wish I had some amazing progress to report, but unfortunately, I don't. Last night it seemed like I had a spike in libido though. I was thinking about a girl from class, nothing sexual... out of nowhere, I got this heavy feeling in my nuts and a little tingling sensation. I started to have sexual thoughts at that point, but quickly got it our of my head because I didn't want to risk anything.

    I feel like I'm at risk for a relapse though. Not because of last night. When I first came back to this site 36 days ago, I said that there were a few personal problems that contributed to my binge. Well, those problems are back. All day I've been thinking, "Fuck it. just watch porn and wack off. It'll make me feel better and I don't have to deal with any of this other shit while I'm doing it."

    I didn't do it obviously... but I gotta watch myself though.
     
  5. baywalker

    baywalker Active Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 40]

    Good job dude. I feel that too sometimes. Mostly catching myself about to watch youtube videos or looking at pictures on facebook that could be possible triggers.

    Stay strong!
     
  6. rcfergie5

    rcfergie5 Guest

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 40]

    Yeah, I go there too, sometimes, and I can now get a semi just watching, but I think if I look at them long enough, I just end up being less sexually interested in girls, it doesn't push me to go look at hardcore porn because I am too mentally strong for that, but it still affects me, so that's why I had to stop now, so I regain sensitivity and then some more shortly, obviously I'm still healing.

    You can do this, Chicago!
     
  7. Chicago

    Chicago New Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 40]

    Day 40 Update Part 2


    At 30 days, I tried to see if I could get hard from touch alone. Before I started my reboot, I couldn't get hard at ALL. At 30 days, it got about 30-35% hard after 2 minutes of very light stroking with NO fantasy AT ALL. I stopped and the 30-35% went completely flaccid in about 30 seconds.

    Today, after being frustrated about my 40 day flat-line, I wanted to see what would happen with light stroking again. I got about 85-90% hard after about 2-3 minutes of light stroking with NO fantasy and I didn't come close to orgasm either. I stopped and it took 4 minutes to go completely flaccid.

    I would assume this is progress. This gave me some great motivation!
     
  8. baywalker

    baywalker Active Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 40]

    That's exactly it. The line between tumblr girls and hardcore was hard to draw, so I took both of them out of the picture. Complete abstinence from artificial stimuli must do the trick, hopefully!

    There is definitely improvement there man, keep it up!
     
  9. Gambrick

    Gambrick Alpha Male since 2012.11.15

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 40]

    Remember not to get too carried away. Remember that not bad is gonna happen to your wiener. This should serve to remind you that, yes, you are recovering, even if it is not noticeable.
     
  10. Chicago

    Chicago New Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 42]

    Thank you for your continued support, Gambrick and Baywalker! I appreciate it.

    Day 42 Update

    6 weeks down! It feels good to continue getting deeper into this reboot.

    Anyway, I was watching a movie earlier today and there was a sex scene. Man, my limbs felt weak when I saw that. Clearly, my addiction still has a bit of a hold on me. after a several seconds I just kind of moved my eyes away because I didn't want to risk anything. But damn, I had some urges after that. They went away quickly though. Again, I have to be careful for any chaser type effects because of it. I think i'll handle it well though.
     
  11. Pedigree

    Pedigree Active Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 42]

    No chaser effect from watching videos, man, only when you MO.

    You know what should do? Don't aim for 100 days. Aim for the day that Derrick Rose comes back 8).
     
  12. rcfergie5

    rcfergie5 Guest

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 42]

    6 weeks ain't bad bro! Keep it going.
     
  13. King

    King Never give up.

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 42]

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=46H1yDcPkw0

    Even injured he is still inspirational to people, and so are to us you Chicago by being 6 weeks into it. Your injury is just of a different kind - but you'll both come back even stronger than ever. :D
     
  14. grzeg12

    grzeg12 New Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 42]

    hi Chicago,I just read your journal. And you are go very similar to me , I now at 40 day with no PMO, the worst for me was days 20-30 when my penis and brain started to be horny, but now I'm again in flatline, yesterday in sql I go to toilet and my penis was very small, but I don't discouraged. The some days with ocasional erections without any special fetish, was very motivated. We must keep strong and patient. And advise for me don;t check your progress :) I sometimes look in my panties, and for example this morning my penis was in erection but very fastly he got flatline again, so I thought ( rest my friend) and I decide even not to look in my pants.

    Many people healing 90-120 days so checking progress at day 40 may be dangerous. :) good luck friend!
     
  15. Chicago

    Chicago New Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 42]

    @ Pedigree - Ah, thanks for the info! I think a better choice would have been that I need to watch out for urges. Boy, have I had some serious urges since seeing that clip in the movie. Just goes to show that I'm still far from being over this addiction. And waiting for Rose isn't a bad idea! By the time he might come back, I'll be at about 120-130 days into my reboot! haha

    @Rcfergie - Thanks, bro! I hope to make it several more weeks!

    @KING- Thanks for that, man! And I love the D.Rose love :D

    @Grzeg12- Hey! thanks for stopping by and showing your support. I agree that checking was dangerous. I don't plan on testing or checking myself until I get to 100 days. I just need to see where I am periodically.

    Day 44 Update

    Nothing to report, really. Just an update saying that I was able to deal with the urges I got from a movie I was watching. I feel like I might slowly be getting back my "mental libido"

    I'll talk more about that in my next update.
     
  16. Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 44]

    I see you´re closing in at 50 days so i thought i´d stop by and give you a high five.
    I normally dont check these journals from guys in their early 20´s because i just get jealous i fapped my best years away.
    You´ll come back like derrick rose, i´ll come back like rasheed wallace.
    Dont waste it!
     
  17. rcfergie5

    rcfergie5 Guest

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 44]

    Way to go cowboy. Best years of your life are not worth wasting, or whacking away.
     
  18. newstart2012

    newstart2012 Guest

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 44]

    Keep going Chicago, and thanks for posting on my journal when i was away,

    you started after me, and you are approaching 50 days which is great!
     
  19. R3balance

    R3balance Active Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 44]

    Just read your journal, keept it going your doing twice better than I have ever done! Hope to be ontrack to where your at now!

    What you said on one of my topic really hit home to me, and I thank you!

    Will be following your journal, keep it rolling and goodluck!!
     
  20. Chicago

    Chicago New Member

    Re: ON TRACK.... Chicago's Journal [Day 44]

    I had to go back to see what I posted on your topic haha. But thanks man! It means a lot. We can all do this shit. It just takes dedication.

    I'll check out your journal as well!

    No problem, Blue. I'll make sure to go check out your journal again once I get the chance.


    Thanks a lot dude! I actually feel the same way when I go on a 16 year old's journal. I always think about how different things would have been if I had quit 6 years ago. Oh well.... no time to dwell on it now haha.

    And a come back is a come back. no matter what the age is! :D
     

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