CHICAGO'S JOURNAL [Day: 1 ; Should have known better]

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by Chicago, Jun 9, 2012.

  1. grzeg12

    grzeg12 New Member


    Nice to hear about success story, especially when I personally have doubt about reboot.
  2. grzeg12

    grzeg12 New Member


    and request to you.
    Inform us about progress in future, f.e once a month or so .
  3. rcfergie5

    rcfergie5 Guest


    Congrats on the success story, once again.

    Congrats man. It's great to see you've made it. Remember, don't get cozy. Always be ready for that old shit to come back. Keep up the good work.
  5. gameover

    gameover Age: 26


    How you going man, any updates?
  6. Chicago

    Chicago New Member

    Hey everyone.... sorry I never came back to update anything. Thing is, everything was going great. I stayed away from porn for a long time, I only masturbated without it every once in a while. I was so mentally strong and I thought I was done with porn forever.

    3-4 weeks ago, everything changed. I was posting another forum, and I saw a very sexual .gif. I won't get into details of what it looked like because I don't want to trigger any of you.... but I almost started to drool when I saw it. I got an erection right away, and I thought, "Eh.. screw it. I've been clean for so long, I've had success... once won't do shit."

    Once turned into a massive binge. In the past 28 days, I've probably PMO'd 40 times. Habits came back... everything is the fuckin same as it was before. I'm so depressed about this shit.

    But... I've done it before. I can do it again.
  7. Amboy

    Amboy 24 yo gay guy trying to beat ed

    Ah shit mate sorry to here you relapsed !! But hopefully it won't take you as long this time to get back where you where , I know it was a big binge but all the progress you've had can't be all gone !!
  8. Amboy

    Amboy 24 yo gay guy trying to beat ed

    I would like to ask how you got on after your success last time ? I'm at 56 days and I'm planning on sex this wkend but I'm kinda worried about orgasming b4 90 days , do you think havering sex at 55 days helped you ? Or if it was again would you have waited longer ?
  9. Chicago

    Chicago New Member

    Hey, Amboy.

    I hope this time is faster. I doubt it though. I really feel like I fucked myself back to square one. Limp dick, 3 hour long masturbation sessions, etc. UGH!!!!!!!!! I'm so frustrated.

    And as for your question about having sex before 90 days... it's different for everyone. I was planning on waiting 100 days before masturbating without porn or having sex. But because of my doctor's orders, I masturbated on day 50... and had sex a few days later. I think it helped me because I felt like I was in flatline for the first 50+ days. After I had, my dick came to life. Random erections, morning wood, etc. all returned and my libido was sky high. Some days my libido sucked, but even a man without a porn addiction has off days.

    I think it's best to hold off as long as possible. I still wish I had waited all 100 days even though it turned out well for me... but if you can wait, wait. If you really wanna test yourself to see if your fixed, nobody can tell you otherwise. if you are fixed, use me as a warning and never fuckin go back to porn.
  10. baywalker

    baywalker Active Member


    You have achieved success before, it'll be soon before you reach it again. Just focus on not bingeing. Your mind has recovered a great deal, it will come back to where it was sooner. You got this!
  11. 9XsOutta10

    9XsOutta10 New Member

    Don't think that you haven't made progress just because you relapsed. I think we put so much emphasis on our "Days since PMO" tickers, and it is a discredit to the progress you made abstaining for as long as you did. It wasn't for nothing. Relapse is just a bump in the road. I recently had a pretty bad binge myself. I too am hoping the next time around is easier . . . but that's not an excuse to let our guard down. Stay strong bro. I'm in Chicago trying take control of my life too.
  12. Amboy

    Amboy 24 yo gay guy trying to beat ed

    Yea I think I've been in a flatline since I started this too , but when I mess around with someone I get really hard and it lastes, I'm thinking it might kick start me , well I'm hoping it will lol this is my second reboot and I haven't looked at porm since last September I think , so I'm hopeing it will work
  13. gameover

    gameover Age: 26

    shit man i hoped we would never see you here again. such a short reboot i think didnt help you to break away from porn. And with the easy success of good sex after 55 days maybe you got complacent?

    you can do it again bro.
  14. The D.Rose of nofap injured again :(
    What went through your mind in the binging days?
    Just not give a fuck or were you constantly battling it? I think its important for people to know this to avoid the binges.
    If you dont mind of course.
  15. fugu

    fugu "You know, feelin' good, livin' betta." :) Staff Member

    It's both nice and sad to see you back! You'll nail it this time though, no doubt!
  16. Hockey711

    Hockey711 Member

    That sucks to hear, I know your success was motivating me so I'm glad your back in a way because I know your going to do the reboot and be successful again. Hopefully I can as well this time.

  17. Neuroplastic

    Neuroplastic "If it's to be, it's up to me" Joe Girard

    Well you're not the same man you were on the very Day 1. You're stronger, wiser, more self aware. Especially if you focus on all the evidences of your will power.

    Forget what happened. You're 11 days and counting away from that. There's no time to overthinking it. Move on, like you are already doing. "We are what we repeat" said a wise man long time ago. You're repeating your path towards a wonderful shag.

    Stay Strong
  18. Deleted User

    Deleted User Guest

    fuck porn.

    get back in the game, chicago
  19. Hockey711

    Hockey711 Member

    I see you haven't reset your counter, hopefully that's a good sign. cheers mate

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