Re: My Desperation I was able to get the paper done for tuesday. It ended up being 16 pages, and though it wasn't my best writing. I think the paper was A material. I saw writing the paper as a challenge, and thus, didn't experience much stress, it's whatever now though. Finals week next week, and I'm ending the chapter for undergrad. I plan on having an eventful summer, and then it will the new adventure of grad school. But I digress, I should be focused on Final week. My grades as of now look like this: C+ A A- A A A I want that C+ to become a B. So I need to do well for that final. For every other class, it is just a matter of maintaining what I have, and not bombing any final. There is one class, the one with A- (it's a computer programming class) that I will have to be extremely careful about during Finals, there's a high possibility for that grade to drop, since I'm struggling a bit with the new material. Soooo no stress, but a bit of a concern. The chess tournament ended. Jeff is the winner, for the second time straight. Second place............Me. Third place.....FR The competition was pretty intense. FR played Jeff, and Jeff just destroyed her, I beat my opponent of the final four, and went to play Jeff. It was a rough one. I was winning the whole time, just eating his pieces away. It seemed like I was going to get a clear win. I make a crucial mistake where I live my king in the most awkward position, with three pons blocking his path...I didn't think much of it, but Jeff was calculating his moves. He used a bishop to checkmate me. I had lost about 2 pieces, and he had lost 8+....I was clearly winning, but due to my not thinking..he won, fair and square. So he got the prize, and I was left with regret. There was like 300 kids that signed up for the tournament, and I make it to second. It's not bad at all, but still.... I was highly disappointed. But in the end, it was just a game, and though the money would have been nice, I still shook Jeff's hand, and we went and partied together. We're good. He's going to Harvard for his Grad school, which is not surprising for anyone who knows him. Tomorrow, I'm going on a final dinner with FR. This will be probably the last time that I see her for a LONGGG time, if not ever. For a girl that I just met in January, she has had the most impact on me than ANY girl that I've ever met. I've never met a girl that has such a potent mix of beauty, smarts, curiosity, and complexity. She's the most easy girl to fall in love with. Fortunately, I caught myself before such a thing could happen. (though some feelings were caught) So I will look at tomorrow as the closing of the FR chapter. I wonder what I will think about this the future. Will I be satisfied with my actions?