'Castle Black' - CLOSED FOREVER. [GROUP - Abandoned]

Discussion in 'Accountability Partners' started by NightsWatch, Jun 11, 2013.

  1. sak1234

    sak1234 Member

    Re: We are the Night's Watch. Welcome to 'Castle Black' [GROUP]

    I was attracted to both of them. They both are fun to be around, adventurous (really turns me on), and have great bodies. It was all mental though. I didn't feel a thing downstairs or any drive to want to sleep with them. I'm not sure how much of that is dependent on rewiring though.
     
  2. aussie sam

    aussie sam New Member

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    Interesting, I have felt the same way. I'm at day 34 and starting to get more random boners and horniness (especially when thinking about girls I know). I still don't quite have that strong sexual drive around girls yet either though, even though I am attracted to them.

    I feel like if I were to have a girl in my bed then I wouldn't have trouble getting it up... but I could be wrong.
     
  3. kevcox25

    kevcox25 Member

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    Hey guys this is the only other group that has guys in there 20's. Plus I love GOT, can I join in I'm 23?
     
  4. JW86

    JW86 New Member

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    What I am noticing more of is that if I am talking to even a half-attractive lass, I'm getting a semi-on.
    My mental pornography particularly, but the body's intelligence kind of locks on "woman.. erection".
    This is very encouraging for me.


    This is not every time, just sometimes, but I never had that before. It's like sex panther - Guaranteed that 60% of the time, it will work every time. lol.
     
  5. NightsWatch

    NightsWatch Member

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    I notice I'm ready to have a connection before I look for sex. I enjoy talking to a girl I have something in common with where I don't feel any pressure whatsoever. Their smiles, their eyes, their lips...
     
  6. darkwolf

    darkwolf New Member

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    My dick did nothing while staring at some hot girls at a concert last night, but after being accidentally brushed by them at various points, I felt a kind of overall horniness that was nice. Guess my wiring may be catching up but staying off porn has made me appreciate real women more for certain.
     
  7. sak1234

    sak1234 Member

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    If you build it (the reboot), they (erections) will come!

    My dick showed the first sign of life yesterday after 25 or so days of nothing. I had a crazy erection thinking about this gal I slept with (attempted with a non functional dick) and I was shocked. Then I had morning wood for the first time in a month or two. For the last few weeks before this though, I was feeling pretty horny without any response. The random erections are what help keep you going!

    Just FYI, even though I am not the biggest fan of counters since I feel they leave you with light at the end of the tunnel to masturbate with goals, I have put one in anyways to make it easier for myself to track the days for narrative reasons as well as to make it easier for the rest of the group to understand where in the reboot I am at.
     
  8. JW86

    JW86 New Member

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    Califree/Samwell Tarly

    Your counter seems to be resetting really frequently, man. What's up? Can we help?
     
  9. aussie sam

    aussie sam New Member

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    I might leave this decision to the longer standing members since I am rather new here myself!
     
  10. Califree209

    Califree209 Reaching for my goal.

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    I just haven't been fighting the urges away. But I need to start again now and get back. Idk why the first time I tried this it was so much easier
     
  11. kevcox25

    kevcox25 Member

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    Ok so can I join in the group anyone?
     
  12. NightsWatch

    NightsWatch Member

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    You have to be 10 days free of PMO to qualify. Stay strong and after day 10 come back and see us. 8)
     
  13. JW86

    JW86 New Member

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    What are your reasons for rebooting? Are you a virgin or have you had sex before? Do you suffer erectile dysfunction in any way? Is too much porn just making you a weaker man?

    Draw up some reasons for quitting. Also you may want to take twenty minutes to right a "Cons to masturbating/porn" and "Pros to rebooting", and stick it up somewhere you can look at regularly. You need to rebuild your motivation after having taken a blow to it by losing a streak.

    Also, consider getting a K9 web filter and randomly generating a password for it. Once you've done that, write the password down somewhere and leave it somewhere (leave it at a locker at school, etc.). Just be careful not to perma-lose it!
     
  14. JW86

    JW86 New Member

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    We cannot have 2 Samwell Tarly's at the same time, because when you're out there in the wild north, would you rather have a man at your back, or a simpering craven?

    [​IMG]


    (Not actually calling those of you <10 days "simpering cravens", that's just Jeor Mormont's dramatic effect. This addiction can be "a right cunt" as Tyrion would put it. Love to all 8))
     
  15. aussie sam

    aussie sam New Member

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    JR has some great advice here and these questions are crucial. It's important to have strong reasons WHY you want to give up, so that you can refer to them for motivation when you feel weak.
     
  16. JW86

    JW86 New Member

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    Temptation struck last night.

    It was the start of my weekend, after having finished a night-shift that morning.

    I got home around 8am, slept until about 1pm, then got up, went to the gym, caught up with my brother, went to my parent's house for dinner. I got home and had a shower. I decided to put the shower to cold at the end to help reduce any desire to masturbate. As the cold water held to my glans/balls it felt good and I ended up holding it there for a minute or two, getting hard and really pretty damn horny.

    Realised what I was doing was going to lead to a relapse, so I stopped and dried off, came back here, read YBR and some of my other sites, then went to bed. As extra insurance against a possible relapse, I took 1.5mg melatonin (sleeping aid).

    This was not enough, I found fantasies about ex-girlfriends coming to mind, accompanied with a tearing frustration and having never actually fucked them due to PIED/phimosis.. I was drowning in lust, humping thin air, groaning out loud, etc., but still no hand to dick. Actually at one point my hand did go to my dick, for maybe 3-4 seconds, before I shouted "NO" at myself, flund myself out of bed panting, and had to have a serious word with myself about sticking to the reboot.

    I reaffirmed that I still need to reboot if any of my fantasies are to actually happen in reality, I reminded myself that I am alone in my room. I then took 3.75mg of zopiclone (pharmaceutical-strength sleep aid) and went back to bed.

    Regardless of my good logic etc., the body took over and I soon found myself 'force wanking' again, indulging fantasy, albeit with hand off dick.. Thank God that Zopiclone kicked in time to help me just stop and forget about orgasm and just collapse asleep.

    Feeling quite humbled and a little anxious today - that is the kind of situation that would inevitably lead to me MO'ing and resetting.I managed barely to avoid that, mainly due to stuffing sleeping pills down my neck which is not a common or particularly desireable path of action to take.

    The original trigger in this were:
    A) Putting rapid water stream over private parts
    B) Building lust a bit too much at the gym picturing those fit women naked etc.
    C) Having a lot of stress over some personal issues, wanting to O away the stress.

    I am now just over half-way to 90 days, this is my best shot at hitting 90.

    I am going to the gym shortly.. Imust focus on my workout.!! And not the women!! And when I have a shower, I'll keep the shower-head fixed and not start exploring with it lol.
     
  17. darkwolf

    darkwolf New Member

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    JW86, one rule I've set for myself and try to stick to (more for the weekends than the week when I'm dog-tired) is that if I can't sleep, I get out of bed. No reading, no smartphone, no music listening - only sleep. If I can't sleep, I get up and do whatever out of bed.

    Most of my M happened in bed, my sexual memories involve the bed a lot, so I have to realize the bed is "the zone" that has danger.
     
  18. JW86

    JW86 New Member

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    Thanks, darkwolf.

    Unfortunately, I MO'd within the last hour.

    Warning signs were there - new resurgence of stress in my life with my relationship, home alone, even the water from the shower made me want to cum, feeling generally less self-control.

    I tried all the meditation, self-talk, reminding myself of reasons to keep with reboot, blah, blah, but my mood was depressed today and it was another night laying awake for hours.

    Blocked the ejaculate with my finger on the first time, but felt a painful, stinging sensation come on a few minutes later, so I kind of made myself come in hopes of clearing that (still blocked the latter half of the ejaculate).. but nope.. hurt fr a good half hoiur, just dying down now.

    Where from here?
     
  19. NightsWatch

    NightsWatch Member

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    Can't wait to kick July's ass with you brother. It's going to be a good month for all of us. I just know it.
     
  20. aussie sam

    aussie sam New Member

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    WHAT?!?! This sounds painful and I can't quite figure out what you were trying to achieve by blocking it with your finger!!

    Can you please explain this one to me?

    Anyways don't fall into a binge. MO isn't the end of the world!
     

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