'Castle Black' - CLOSED FOREVER. [GROUP - Abandoned]

Discussion in 'Accountability Partners' started by NightsWatch, Jun 11, 2013.

  1. NightsWatch

    NightsWatch Member

    Re: We are the Night's Watch. Welcome to 'Castle Black' [GROUP]

    @Sak1234

    Did you feel that having orgasms with girls hindered your reboot process? Because I've had a few orgasms from being with girls but I never fap or look at porn.

    Today the fantasies were flying at my from every angle when I woke up this morning (Went out drinking last night). After about 30minutes I had to stop thinking about it. Never touched my dick once though, which use to be the worst habit. I use to edge, now I don't even think about it.
     
  2. Califree209

    Califree209 Reaching for my goal.

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    Yeah man I hope so.
     
  3. rohan

    rohan Member

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    So the first goal has been achieved. 30 days without Porn, Masturbation or O (except the WD's). :)
    In this 30 days I had 2 WD, where I only could remember one dream. I also had regulary MW (not everyday or didn't recognized it --> When I slept more than 8 hours I didn't recognize them --> After 6 or 7 hours of sleep i always/most of time had them --> maybe I should write all these times down, to get some pattern :p).

    I definitely more appreciate the beauty of women and I really enjoying it to look at them. :)

    My next goal for the following 30 days is to going fully monk mode. That means reduce fantasizing as much as possible.

    I hope you do all well, brothers. :)
     
  4. sak1234

    sak1234 Member

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    Yeah people certainly are different. I have never been the kind of guy who was ever "addicted" to porn in that I didn't use K9 or any other web blocker and I just naturally stopped watching porn as much so I thought my reboot would be quick for that reason. My first time masturbating was actually to porn at the age of 12 or 13. I never orgasmed to anything else before that.

    I need to regroup and get a truly solid reboot in though. I have dated probably 20 or so girls over the last year and a half and, luckily, haven't met the perfect or imperfect girl for me. I don't want this issue to get in my way in case I do meet that person though. Sexuality is such a deep part of who we are as people. I want to finally be able to explore that aspect of myself with others.

    As far as optimism goes, I try to keep myself and those around me thinking positively or, at least, realistically. It is crucial for work, my organization, and just leading a happy life in general.

    Congrats on meeting you first goal rohan! Good luck on the next leg of the reboot. I'm sure you'll crush it, no problem.

    Well, I only had 3 or 4 orgasms actually inside women (70% hard max) and I honestly was not enjoying myself. I was probably unsuccessful another 10 to 15 times just trying to penetrate. I was trying to simply get through the sexual encounter after a while. There were probably another 5 or 6 times where I came from a girl's hand, but again, not as hard as I would like. Hindsight, I would have been much better off if I just waited a solid 60 to 90 days before trying to do anything.

    Never touching your dick is a really good idea. It will save you a lot of bad evenings where you may decide to masturbate otherwise.
     
  5. NightsWatch

    NightsWatch Member

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    Thanks Sak. I might be hanging out with a hookup friend tonight but after knowing that it hinders progress now I'm skeptic. My problem is that even when I do get hard I orgasm way too quick. Probably due to poor erection quality too. This really puts me on the spot. I want to reboot healthier the quickest way rather than wasting another year. Hmmmm...
     
  6. JW86

    JW86 New Member

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    OK - Decide!
    Last night, I went to bed. It took me about an hour and a half to fall asleep. I was experiencing sexual fantasy based on girls I know/knew, non-pornographic and more intimate scenes. My balls actually hurt.

    I was soft throughout most of this. At several points throughout this torrent of fantasies, I had the awareness and intention to redirect my mind mind elsewhere (my breath, relaxing my body, thinking of other things). It kept coming back to the fantasies. At times I went with and enjoyed the fantasies.

    Aside for at one point readjusting (and ?touching for maybe 2-3 seconds, through my underwear and the bed sheets), I did not stimulate my penis. My hands remained above the sheets, holding one of the pillows to my side. I did not grind or hump the bed. But the fantasies (which, as I said, I sometimes resisted, and sometimes enjoyed and allowed) built up over maybe a half-hour until I basically jizzed in my pants/i] I was hypagognic by this point, still semi-conscious, I'd say.

    SO - what do you say?

    Am I out, or can I still count myself in? This is my best streak so far. I want to maintain it. Similar thing happened on day 5 of this attempt and I decided to keep going.
     
  7. aussie sam

    aussie sam New Member

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    I would categorise this under a WD of sorts. So my vote is that you're still in based mostly on the fact that you didn't touch yourself.
     
  8. rohan

    rohan Member

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    +1

    I know this situation. Build up arousal through imagination is a bitch!

    Slept only 5 hours and 45 minutes deeply. Had MW and my penis feels like it could bust one out, but I won't give in. It wouldn't feel good anyway.
     
  9. aussie sam

    aussie sam New Member

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    Hey also does someone have any links to information about this infamous "death grip" masturbation style I hear about. I want to know if it is something that I have been doing.

    Thanks and congrats to Rohan for getting to 30 days!!! I can't wait to get there myself soon!
     
  10. rohan

    rohan Member

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    They discussed the deathgrip here on the forum.

    http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/index.php?topic=2246.0

    It is fixable with some creme, healing your penis skin. It is not permanent. :)

    And thank you mate! Will see you up there soon too. :)
     
  11. aussie sam

    aussie sam New Member

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    Man I'm really struggling in this flatline. I just feel depressed and have no motivation to do any work or anything. The longest I have ever been without MO before I started this was about a week before the sexual tension was too much to handle. After I watched the Your Brain On Porn 6 part series, I decided to give this a go. To my surprise it took less than a week to hit flatline. I still get the occasional morning wood and the odd erection but I don't get anything from real life beautiful women.

    I feel really emotional at the moment about girls. Especially this one who I was kind of fruitlessly chasing. It's weird though, we have little to no emotional connection and when I'm with her I feel like a 16 year old boy trying to act like a man. I know that the feelings are more to do with my flatline than anything else but I just feel gross at the moment.

    :-[
     
  12. JW86

    JW86 New Member

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    Hey aussie_sam,

    My suggestion to you would be less thinking, more doing. Nothing worse than ruminating on this shit.
    Do you exercise? What's your living situation? Work/school?


    Thanks for your feedback to my last post, by the way.
     
  13. aussie sam

    aussie sam New Member

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    Hey no worries JD, we are all in this together.

    I am 25 and I work freelance from home (in a shared apartment). I've got myself into a bit of a hole where my business isn't making money and I still have a whole lot of work promised to clients. I'm trying to get out and exercise which helps. My motivation was already low before NoFap and I have been on medication for depression when I was younger but I'm starting to think that it might have been caused by draining my brain of dopamine 3 times a day. This seems worse than that depression though.

    Recently I have been seeking an escape from this stress and self validation from girls. Naturally this can be unhealthy but especially when I'm low like this. I guess I just need to keep trying not to dwell on this stuff and just get stuck into my work. Easier said than done though.

    All I feel like doing right now is going to bed an MOing but I know that that won't fix things at all. I at least feel good that I am strong enough to resist that.
     
  14. JW86

    JW86 New Member

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    Hey Sam,

    We're a similar age (I'm 26) and intrigued to hear you work from home - what do you do?
    In regards to everything else, it would appear that getting the money sorted, and using discipline to make sure you really do get some exercise, would be good goals for now.

    I don't have a lot to add unfortunately, I'm shattered after work. :)
     
  15. aussie sam

    aussie sam New Member

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    Yes it's funny to think there are so many guys our age with this problem. I custom design/make audio equipment for recording studios and DJs. I love what I do but have gotten myself into a rut where I am stuck on the computer all day designing and not building much. I've started to hate my work. PMO was a natural release throughout my day when I thought about the enormity of my work load. But I've always used it as a release even when not working for myself.

    To be honest though I think that MO is my addiction and P was just a byproduct that fed it. There have been plenty of periods in my life where I haven't had internet and it didn't change much. I'm hoping to get a workspace away from home when I can get my life sorted in the nearish future, but it's just hard trying to deal with this at the moment.

    What is you're work/living situation?
     
  16. Califree209

    Califree209 Reaching for my goal.

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    Finished summer school early bro's!
     
  17. rohan

    rohan Member

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    Hey guys,

    today I will add the nourishing kidney pills in my daily routine the guy mentioned in his success story. Until now I took red ginseng. The problem is, he didn't mention how many pills he took every day. He only said, when he took them. The dosage should be 2-3 times a day, 3-4 capsules a time regarding the pharmaceutical company and this is very much for only 50 pills each pill package. Maybe you can find the passage as native English speakers, where he mentioned how many he took every day.

    http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/index.php?topic=9773.0

    I will keep you up to date, if they work. Also planning a fasting in the future. Metal recommended them as an ED-Killer.
     
  18. aussie sam

    aussie sam New Member

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    Hey Rohan I read the thread but it seems that he didn't mention how many to take, hopefully he replies to your question. I would suggest taking the dosage that is recommended on the bottle though.

    I didn't notice that you weren't a native english speaker until you mentioned it. May I ask where you are from?

    I am interested to hear the results of the pills and fasting if you try them.
     
  19. rohan

    rohan Member

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    Oh really? Haha i think my English is really bad.^^

    I'm from Germany, mate!

    I have 100 pills, that means I have to order another pack of pills for 21 Euro to reach at least the 30 days he has mentioned.... The shipping costs from Singapore to Germany are a bugger to express it like the Hound, but last time they refunded me 6 Euro, so I think 15 Euro are okay I guess if you compare it to other medications like L-Arginin. Unfortuanetly I didn't find a shop in Germany where I can order them.

    I will keep you informed, if they worked. ;)
     
  20. aussie sam

    aussie sam New Member

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    Hah I knew it!

    I am from New Zealand but I'm living in Berlin (I just started using the Aussie nickname when I joined another forum where I was scared someone might recognize me). I thought with your high level of english that you had to either be German or Scandinavian, but then I couldn't imagine a Scandinavian admitting that they weren't confident with their english so you had to be German!

    I would offer to split the cost with some pills, but I have to be sensible with my money at the moment. Also I have some other herbal things on the way. But it will be interested to know how you get on!
     

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