'Castle Black' - CLOSED FOREVER. [GROUP - Abandoned]

Discussion in 'Accountability Partners' started by NightsWatch, Jun 11, 2013.

  1. JW86

    JW86 New Member

    Re: We are the Night's Watch. Welcome to 'Castle Black' [GROUP]

    You're right.

    Got two weeks vacation (holiday we call it here in limey England) coming up next month. Considering taking three days of that out at a meditation retreat. Maybe see some friends in other cities as well, could be a nice break.

    Starting to piece some more constructive thinking together here. Getting there..

    Cheers for the support
     
  2. TimeForAChange

    TimeForAChange Starting a journey for a new life!

    Re: We are the Night's Watch. Welcome to 'Castle Black' [GROUP]

    As a huge Game of Thrones fan I would love to join this group for support and discuss things with you guys!

    I am 25 years old and currently on day 8. I want to become a real man who people can look up to. Not some charity case who people feel pity for.

    I want to educate myself, start working out and be PMO free. Start meeting girls and socialize more, work doesn't count.

    So I would love to pledge my life and honor to the night's watch if you will accept me!
     
  3. NightsWatch

    NightsWatch Member

    Re: We are the Night's Watch. Welcome to 'Castle Black' [GROUP]

    In two days if you abstain from PMO, you will join the ranks.

    JW - If you're working 12 hour shifts you must be racking up the money. If you don't mind me asking, how much of that are you saving. You're single right? Perhaps the key to conquering your PMO addiction is to set goals outside of the PMO world. Such as, "Save X amount of money." Once you reach that goal, go higher.
     
  4. JW86

    JW86 New Member

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    Single-ish, I guess, still no closure - this is frustrating and not helping as the relapses are mainly a reaction to the emotions.

    Yeah, the job is a decent earner and I'm saving a large proportion of it. I was £3,000 in debt at the start of this year, I now have over £1,000 in savings so that has gone really well. I want to aim to get a good 2k in savings, maybe up to 3k, 5k or more.. I'm working 65 hours this week, but that is unusually high lol.

    I have ordered myself an olympic barbell and weight set so I can weight train at home as it's dark, cold, and quite a walk to the gym, and the gym only have one squat rack. I'll set certain strength training goals to achieve.

    The MO last night didn't even involve any hands, just insomnia and contact with the bed. I need to retrain my brain to handle the urges and feelings.
     
  5. kevcox25

    kevcox25 Member

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    So my gf and I are gonna slow it down. I'm a lot better from when I started this journey but my erections will go away if I don't stay penetrated inside her. I feel more abstinence or atleast no orgasms from me are what I need to do?
     
  6. NightsWatch

    NightsWatch Member

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    You can easily save more than that. Just keep growing your savings and good luck with the weight goals. I have an Olympic barbell at home and some weights. I use to be able to Squat (parallel) and Deadlift 365. I had a setback and I've lost a lot of mass. People say I look much thinner, saying it's better, but I miss my strength. I think come December I'll make it a regular thing again. I probably won't be as die-hard as I use to be, but I'll stick to Wendlers 5-3-1 perhaps and slowly get my strength back while managing my energy levels which work completely drains.
     
  7. JW86

    JW86 New Member

    Re: We are the Night's Watch. Welcome to 'Castle Black' [GROUP]

    OK OK first benchmark is 3,000 in savings, then 6,000, then 9,000.. could take a while.

    I think I got my squat to 225, my dead to 305... 365 on both is impressive, you must have been a large guy.

    I am no longer doing the gym side due to there only being one squat rack/oly barbell, the overabundance of people, and travel distances.

    Gotta work again!
     
  8. kevcox25

    kevcox25 Member

    Re: We are the Night's Watch. Welcome to 'Castle Black' [GROUP]

    So I get aroused with my girlfriend from foreplay it gets to around 85% erection and is fine unless I take it out. I think it is a big improvement, however my sensitivity is shit. I bought man1man oil to help that but I feel Cialis may push the erection to 100%. Or maybe I just need to give it more time. I just want to be done and past this, I don't have any urges to porn anymore and I rarely have them for masturbation anymore. What should I do?

    I also found out I have a hereditary condition that has given my prostatitis, which is caused by a kink in the urethra. Prostate issues cause erection loss in some instances......so I have no idea anymore.
     
  9. JW86

    JW86 New Member

    Re: We are the Night's Watch. Welcome to 'Castle Black' [GROUP]

    Kevcox - 8 days PMO free is a little early to say you don't get any temptation from porn - speaking from my experience, anyway.

    It sounds to me like you need to rule out any physical problem with your Doctor.

    Do you get 100% erection overnight or when waking in the morning?

    If you do... chances are you may need more time to reset.. say, try 28 or 40 days without O, then try again?

    Speaking as a hypocrite, day by day, must survive!
     
  10. kevcox25

    kevcox25 Member

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    I reset the counter because of orgasms during sex not PMO. Haven't looked at porn in 54 days really
     
  11. NightsWatch

    NightsWatch Member

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    Good job dude. Even though I've MO only a few times since... Sep 02? I haven't watched porn at all during any of that. My porn addiction is being replaced by a full-time job and what not. Edging is hard to stop sometimes. Still working on that but I've seen much progress on my end when it comes to leaving the porn world behind.
     
  12. NightsWatch

    NightsWatch Member

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    I'm putting in a lot of work. Did 11 hours today. The little company I am a part of is swamped in work. The paperwork is backhauled too which is the only way we can pay our bills. I might have to pull a 10 hour both Saturday and Sunday to eradicate it!
     
  13. kevcox25

    kevcox25 Member

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    So would orgasms during real sex set me back a lot? I'm having like 85% erections and I want those to be harder, plus my sensitivity is getting somewhat better. I've come a long way from what it was. I feel like I should hold off a little bit longer?
     
  14. NightsWatch

    NightsWatch Member

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    All depends on how you feel Kev. There's nothing wrong with it from what I know.
     
  15. kevcox25

    kevcox25 Member

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    Only if it's to porn correct?
     
  16. JW86

    JW86 New Member

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    Hey Kev,

    Well yeah obviously no porn, preferably no masturbation.

    Do you find your sensitivity is increasing even while having regular sex? If so, that's good. If you feel you are losing sensitivty or erection as time goes on with regular sex, then maybe time to take a break for a few weeks or a month. As long as you're having a net gain in your experience, may as well keep at it and reevaluate in a month or two.

    Hope you're all well.
     
  17. kevcox25

    kevcox25 Member

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    Well its gotten to the point where I like sex better than anything, which is how its supposed to be. The erections are quite how they used to be, but they get harder than anything around her. I've told her the root of the problem, because it came on around my late teens. So I'm trying to get her off more than anything and I'm trying to hold off the orgasms for awhile. I've also starting using man1man oil recently which may contribute to sensitivity restoration.
     
  18. JW86

    JW86 New Member

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    Just relapsed.

    Yesterday I went on an adult dating site for the site time. Didn't register, just saw a few photos and profiles. MO'd in bed that night. Had some chaser today, circumnavigated my filter and downloaded a few pornographic vids. Just PMOd.

    I'm off tomorrow to a meditation retreat for the weekend. I sincerely hope I can do some reflection there and come out of it stronger an more enthusiastic for a healthy life.
     
  19. Califree209

    Califree209 Reaching for my goal.

    Re: We are the Night's Watch. Welcome to 'Castle Black' [GROUP]

    Finally back over a month and I dont recall ever feeling this good ;D stay strong brothers!
     
  20. rohan

    rohan Member

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    Nice number you got there in your counter. I'm proud of you. :)

    Hope everyone had a beautiful Christmas with their beloved ones. :)
     

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