I'm 28 and seemingly lost. It's like the older I get the worse I become. When I was 23 I went 90 without fapping. Now that seems impossible. My biggest accomplishment is that I was able to use nofap in my early 20s to overcome a femdom addiction enough to put myself out there and have normal sex. This got me overconfident and I eventually decided the best route was to find a virgin and nofap till marriage then sleep with her for life. Now I am engaged to be married but my future wife doesn't know I waste so much of my time fapping. My career hasn't started because of my habitual marijuana and fapping problem and I am incredibly defeated due to the realization of the compound effects of my bad habits and my continued failure to win the battle against vice. It feels like even when I quit I'm just delaying the inevitable fall back into weed and porn. I haven't found a true calling in my career other than it's purpose as a source to provide for my future wife and kids. I also still fall back into femdom porn despite knowing from real life experiences with mistresses that it is degrading and not a good thing. I am lazy, marijuana and porn addicted and at this point it feels impossible. Can I really nofap 1.5 years till our wedding day? Can i be a normal funcfioning adukt afyer years of being a lazy stoner fapper? I'm just confused at this point. I used to be so confident. Now I worry I don't understand this at all. Any advice based on what I wrote is appreciated. Thank you.